Am I even there?|Tommyinnit angst

Streaming,Why?. (6)

-Mentions of eating disorder-

The dreaded day finally came.  He has to stream. Don't get him wrong, Tommy loves streaming because he loves talking to his viewers,and asking how they've been. He likes to help them. He also likes to play tons of games which is one of the reasons why he became a streamer for fun. But, he hates seeing hate messages. His Mods sometimes don't see the messages quickly enough to delete them, and the hate messages come through Donations as well.

"What's up chat! How are you all doing?"
Tommy got "hellos" and "goods" and "doing well"
"So today we are just gonna just have a chill stream since I just want to be chill today for this stream!" Tommy watched as people came rolling in the stream.

"So you can ask questions!"

So many questions popped up it was hard to see which one to choose.

A donation popped up and it said " Why did you want to be a youtuber/streamer?"

"I just wanted to see how it would feel like streaming and making videos and it's really fun to do." Tommy in fact loved streaming it was one of his favorite things to do.

"What's your opinion on the LGBTQ+ community?" A viewer asked.
"Love 'em, You guys are always welcome here!"
Tommy always felt love when people came out to him because that means that they trust him enough to share that to him.

After answering more questions for about an hour ish Tommy started to get tired, but he decided to keep streaming for about 30 more minutes.

"When was the last time you ate? You look hella skinny." Someone in the chat asked
Tommy noticed that question and decided to ignore it.
But, some other viewers caught on to what that person said and decided to ask the same question over and over.
It was getting difficult for Tommy to ignore it so he thought to end stream early since he doesn't want people to find out he hasn't been eating for over a week or more. He didn't like it when people saw him vulnerable or take pity on him. He always feel like someone always take pity on him and say they care.
He's got it under control.

-Incoming call-

Tommy answered while on mute.

"Yes Wilbur?" Tommy said with a shaky voice.

"Ah Tommy, dream wanted to know if you have said yes to living in Florida? He said that you don't have to live there yet you can stay there for short/long periods of time to see if your ready."

Wilbur was already planning on going to move to Florida before he called Tommy.

"Oh okay, anyways was that the only reason you decided to call me?"-Tommy
"Oh no it's not Tommy why are some people in your chat saying you look skinnier than normal?"-Wilbur
"I don't know why Wilbur I'm just my normal weight I'm fine"-Tommy, that was obviously a lie
"You sure Tommy? You look unusually skinny."-Wilbur
"I'm fine Wilbur! Stop asking me these questions please."-Tommy
"Alright Tommy I'll let you slide on this one. Bye Tommy."-Wilbur
"Bye Wilbur"-Tommy

"Anyways chat that'll be all for today don't expect me to be live tomorrow since I'll be making a YouTube video that day, and I hope you all have a wonderful day Goodnight!."
That's it. The stream ended. Now Tommy didn't have to fake being the way he was since it all was a persona.
When was the last time I ate? Tommy thought to himself. It's been over a week or two weeks since he ate and he was running low on energy. Of course Tommy at like an apple here and there but even then that was to much calories for him to eat. He thought to himself that he was eating to much. Tommy then realized how was he gonna hide this while being in Florida with the other people from the dream smp? That's what worried him the most. He didn't want to eat in front of them or do it in general. The most he can probably last in a week or so without being caught or being suspicious.

Maybe he should tell them soon? Or let them figure it out themselves?
Find out in the next chapter-
Ah finally I got a chapter out school is out for me so I'll just have a random chapter upload schedule-
And should I keep uploading chapters at night in Eastern time or do it during the day?
Anyways I hope you liked this chapter I feel like I could've done better on this chapter but I'm tired since I just got this chapter done today, but I hope you all have a good day/night or morning when your reading this and byeee.
-Cloud <3