Am I even there?|Tommyinnit angst

Hunger. (8)

-Mentions of eating disorder,depressive thoughts-

                                                                                Tommy's POV.

Let's just say I haven't eaten in awhile. By that it's been a few weeks and surprisingly nobody has noticed. Whenever my parents got worried for me I would just eat in front of them or tell them I'll eat upstairs. Or I just told them I was to tired to eat or I just woke up. I've been almost caught several times but they never noticed. Only when I accidentally used the same excuse in one day or to much.

Today Tommy was just chilling outside walking around in a park near his neighborhood. Not gonna lie This park was absolutely beautiful. It had a pond full of lily pads and water Lilys, a nice stone path to walk on, and beautiful trees and flowers. This park was the spot where Tommy would just go there to be relaxed or just to go there to admire the beauty of it. Rarely ever interrupted which Tommy liked. But of course he sees someone just standing there trying to get Tommy's attention so they could take a picture. It's not like he didn't like to be with his fans but he didn't like taking pictures. It shows how 'disgusting' he looks in his mind. Or how big his checks look in pictures or his leg and arms.
"Hello can we take a picture together? I'm a viewer of yours and I really like your content."
"Sure! I would be happy to take pictures with you." That was a lie
The viewer got to take a picture with Tommy, so now they started to leave which left Tommy wondering.
Would the person post the picture online? Tommy didn't want that picture to be online. Since he didn't really try to look his "best" this morning because he just wanted to chill. He started to worry about how people will react to him looking like that. Would they think he would look bad? Or even worse than that? Is so Tommy probably won't be able to handle that since he's already starving himself to have the "perfect" body everyone has.

After Tommy thinking for a long time about the picture, he decided to leave and accept the fate that, that person will post the picture of him online and everybody will judge him.

When Tommy got home his parents called him to dinner and said "Toms, it's time to eat come down here!"
Tommy responded with "Not hungry! I'm gonna take a nap!"
And with that Tommy just ran upstairs so his parents couldn't respond to him. That's how he usually got away without eating.

Tommy knows what he's doing to himself is bad and nobody should ever do it but, the voice in his head told him to do it and for some reason he's listening to that voice.

The person uploaded the picture online.
Tommy didn't know that the person posted the picture online till people were dming him.

The caption of the picture says "Does Tommy look skinnier than normal?"
And the comments were saying "yeah why does he look underweight?" Or along the lines like that.
Surprisingly to Tommy, basically a lot of his friends were dming him as well.

He mostly got texts from Wilbur, tubbo, and dream
Asking if he was okay and if anything was going on. But Tommy thinks that they were only doing that to pity him.

Wilbur POV.
A random person uploading a photo to Instagram and a lot of people were sending me photos of them with Tommy saying he looked underweight or really really skinny for his age. And I thought, when he does look a little underweight but he was always that size. I think? Now that I think about it he looks a lot skinner since the last time we met up which was worrying since we met up a couple of weeks ago. I decided to tell the others about this just in case when we meet up in Florida.

(Basically they all got in a call with Wilbur except Tommy)

"Have you guys see the picture of Tommy with his fan yet?"-Wilbur
"No? What's wrong?"-Fundy
"Nope"-Dream
"I have and I think I know where this is going"-Techno
"No not yet"-Nikki
The others mostly responded with "no's" and some "yes's"
"Most of the comments say that Tommy looks underweight and he looks a lot skinnier than he did when we last met up which was a couple of weeks ago."-Wilbur
"Yeah but what do you think is causing Tommy to be underweight?"-Dream
"He could be just not eating or something bad is happening with his health or something?"-Techno
"Tommy wouldn't just stop eating out of nowhere... right?"-Eret
"I don't know Eret hopefully not."-Nikki
"We could just keep an eye on him during streams and when we meet up in Florida"-Wilbur
"Should we tell tubbo about this?"-Fundy
"Not yet we don't want to worry him." - Quackity
"Yeah that's the best option for now at least"-Jack
"Alright that's all I wanted to talk about, we could continue this conversation later maybe."-Wilbur
They all said there goodbyes and continued what they were doing before Wilbur called them.

-End if Wilbur's POV.-
-Tommy's POV-

What time is it? Oh it's 10:37 PM, looks like I slept for an hour and 30 minutes. That's enough time to skip dinner since it passed already. I should probably go downstairs and get an apple, but I don't want to get caught so I probably shouldn't go get one. I'll just stay up here and come up with some video ideas for next week. I should also go get packed for the meet up soon since it's coming up in a week.

After Tommy got packed for the trip in a week all he had in his luggage was, a toothbrush/toothpaste, tons of hoodies shirts and tons of jeans ,sweat pants, socks, a couple pairs of shoes and other bathroom stuff.
He basically got all of he needed in and hour and struggled to fit his stuff in his luggage but still got it all in.

Now he needs to mentally prepare for the trip.
Which that was gonna be a task compared to a lot of things. Will Tommy end up messing up the trip for himself or the trip goes all according to plan?
Find out in the next chapter when it comes out-

Anyways, I hope you all liked this chapter, and have a wonderful day/night/morning!
Byeee
-Cloud