More than F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Chapter 32

LOUIS' POV

Thank the gods Harry was already out, rehearsing and trying costumes for his performance tonight before Louis woke up. There were no classes due to the fest so Louis woke up past noon. He freshened up, got ready and went to Liam and Zayn's. Niall was already there as he reached. ''Hey lads! What's up?'', he said. ''Anything you wanna tell mate?'', Niall asked. Louis sighed and explained everything that happened since last night. ''So you are going with El to the fest?'', Liam asked. ''I did not want her to cry, so yeah.'', Louis answered.Then Louis decided to tell them the thought that had been haunting him for ages.They were his best friends,they deserved to know.Plus half of them weren't straight anyway.Actually he didn't know whether Liam and Zayn were official or not yet.Zayn had just told him that they made out a lot and they'd gone out a couple of times.That sounded very much like dating in Louis' eyes but he didn't want to force a label on them if they didn't want to.It seemed as though Liam was still coming to terms with it so..

''Oh and also, I think I might be bisexual?'', Louis said, but it came out more like a question. ''What?'', the three boys said in unison. ''Bisexual, unlabelled whatever! I like girls and guys too.'', he said. ''That's great! My ship is sailing, Larry is realll!'', Niall exclaimed with happiness, hugging Louis, as he laughed. Did anyone ever understand what Niall said? Like ever?

The other two didn't think it was a big surprise and just hugged him and said they're proud of him for coming out."Let's go to see our Hazza then?"Zayn suggested when everyone was ready. "No, you don't share him with me!"Louis' words were out of his mouth before he could register what he said.But Zayn just smiled cheekily and pat his friend's shoulder, "We sure don't mate,"and stepped out of the room.Niall followed him quickly but for some reason Liam lingered. "What happened Lima?"Lou asked,confused. Liam shook his head and gave a small smile. "I wish I was as confident as you Lou." And before Louis could actually understand what that meant,Niall and Zayn came back inside and swooped the two away to see the love of- no,to see Harry's performance.

It was almost halfway through the fest performances and Louis was sitting between Eleanor and Zayn, when the host announced, ''And next, the most popular singer of the college! With one of his own songs! Harry Styles!'' The audience cheered and whistled.He almost tripped as he walked up on stage and Louis gave a slight chuckle at his clumsy bambi.The brunette sat down on a stool at the center of the stage and adjusted his guitar.His mop of curls falling in front and hiding his angelic face, the lights dimmed, spotlight on him,copper curls and emerald eyes glowing as he started strumming his guitar and singing.

Same lips red, same eyes blue

Same white shirt, couple more tattoos

But it's not you and it's not me

Tastes so sweet, looks so real

Sounds like something that I used to feel

But I can't touch what I see

Louis felt a hole in his chest, a wave of warmth took over him as he felt butterflies in his stomach, why did it feel so familiar?Like it was something he was supposed to know but couldn't understand. The way Harry described it felt so.

We're not who we used to be

We're not who we used to be

We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me

Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

The fridge light washes this room white

Moon dances over your good side

And this was all we used to need

Tongue-tied like we've never known

Telling those stories we already told

'Cause we don't say what we really mean

So real.That's what the description felt like.Completely and utterly real.Harry looked so peaceful yet sad. His eyes were closed, his voice ethereal. It didn't feel like he was even mentally present,but Louis was so enthralled,it was almost haunting.But it felt as if his Harry was hurting, did Louis really hurt Harry? His face showed sorrow and hurt.

We're not who we used to be

We're not who we used to be

We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me

We're not who we used to be

We're not who we used to be

We're just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty

Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

We're not who we used to be

We're not who we used to be

We're just two ghosts standing in the place of you and me

We're not who we used to be

We don't see what we used to see

We're just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty

Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

I'm just trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

During the last part, Harry opened his eyes and stared right at Louis, he thought he saw him cry onstage.Harry's beautiful eyes were glazed and his bottom lip was quivering slightly,which only happened when he was trying to prevent his tears from falling.It also wasn't helping his case that we was looking straight into Louis' eyes.Green eyes met blue,and then it hit him.

Same eyes blue.He had blue eyes.The tattoos.Oops and hi.They were definitely not what they used to be.From hating each other,to roomates,to friends,to best friends,to a feeling Louis couldn't even begin to describe and then this,distant but pining for each other even though they lived together.And in that moment he knew.

Louis was sure this song was about him. Just as the song ended, everyone clapped as Harry hurriedly left the stage,wiping his eyes frantically,guitar slung over his shoulder,bouncing between his shoulder blades as he ran. Louis quickly got up from his seat and rushed backstage. He had to confront Harry, he had to tell him everything.Otherwise there would be nothing left.And in the great words of Shawn Mendes, "Everything means nothing if I can't have you."