Secrets of the mafia

8. chapter

TW - rape, suicide

One day before the birthday:

Roxy's pov:

What can I tell you? That my life is perfect? Better than ever was? That I'm in love? And tomorrow I'm getting married to the love of my life?

No.

My life is... I don't even know. Sometimes I feel like like I don't even have a life anymore. I feel like everyone is controlling me and I don't have power anymore.

There is always someone beside me even on the toilett or when I'm in the shower, and I can't even eat what I want or whenever I want.

I can't fight anymore. I gave up. I'm not that strong anymore. I feel like I'm trapped here. I sometimes feel like they're not even my family anymore. Nobody cares, my siblings are never there, my parents are never in the house anymore, because they think I already control the mafia so they don't have to...

Maybe your wondering why is this happening? I tell you why! 

Aleciano Flavio a.k.a my fiancé. He is the one controlling me. I think he will be the one who will control MY mafia too, because he doesn't even let me fully talk to the bodyguards or MY OWN PARENTS. The only person who he lets me fully talk to is for some reason Luca.

Oh, yes. Luca.

Can I have an enemy and a best friend in one person? I don't know if it's possible, but probably is, because that's Luca for me. He is always there for me. When I just want to scream at the top of my lungs because I tell myself that I'm done and the only thing I wanna do is die, he listens to me and tries to awaken the piece of life that remains in me. When I need a hug, he hugs me and the same when I want to cry, because my fiancé yelled at me.

Today I wanted to go to the store because I got my period and I wanted ice cream. And guess what? Instead of ice cream I got slapped. From who? My fiancé, of course. You're asking why didn't anyone stop him? Because my parents are at a vacation, the boys are on some mission and Lia was shopping. 

Maybe you think this was the first time he laid his hands on me. No. Yesterday he raped me.

I was lying on my bed when he stormed in. First I thought he was drunk, but when I stood up to help him I didn't smell any alcohol and he was standing completely fine. When he laid his eyes on me he started walking towards me with a smirk. I took a step back, but I hit the bed and fell on it. He came closer and looked at my bare thighs with lust and I regretted wearing a dress. He went on top of me and parted my legs. I tried to scream but he put his fist in my mouth. Than he ripped my dress of with his other hand and pulled his friend out. I started crying and then it happened.

I didn't tell anybody about it, about it. Not even Luca, because I'm afraid what would he do. I just can't anymore and maybe that's why I'm doing what I'm doing.

I already took a lot of pills and then a knife and started cutting myslef. A lot. I heard the front door shut and when I wanted to stand up and quickly clean everything up, I couldn't. Then I passed out.

Luca's pov:

The mission is done. Fucking finally! Johnny stayed to help clean up the bodies, but I was so excited to come home to my queen, so I left earlier.

I arrived at the same time as Lia. She pulled out some bags from her car and I rolled my eyes. Of course she was shopping.

I opened the door for her and waited. "Hello Cerelia." I said. "Ciao." She said without any emotion. We talked about that time when I shot her and I explained that it was an accident, but she still seems to be pissed at me. She walked up the stairs, I guess to her room, without any other word.

I was about to stepp into the kitchen when I heard her scream. I walked back a few steps. She was at the top of the stairs looking for something and when she saw me she ran off then to my direction. She pulled on my arm and that was when I saw tears in her eyes.

"Do you saw a spider I have to kill or something?" I asked with a smirk on my face waiting for her reaction but she just looked at me. "Roxy." She wisperd and started crying. My face turned to a worried one. I asked what's wrong but she just pulled me towards the stairs. I started panicking. I accelerated to Roxy's room leaving Lia behind.

The door was opened but Roxy wasn't there. I looked around and saw that the bathroom door is opened, too. I slowly walked in and saw Roxy laying on the ground. There was blood everywhere and a knife next to some pills in the sink.

I quickly picked her up and carried her to the hospital wing of the mansion.

"Hey!! Somebody!!" I yelled and some nurses rushed to me. I need help was all I said before I broke down crying.

"Take her there." One nurse pointed at one of the rooms. And I slowly put her down on the bed. A doctor came in. "You need to leave Mr Xiomar." I nodded but before walking out I kissed Roxy's forehead and whispered: "Don't leave me, please."

I sat down outside the room  and put my head into my hands. "It's all my fault. I shouldn't have allowed it to come this far." I sighed and leaned back in my seat putting my head on the wall behind me. In a few minutes Lia came and asked where is Roxy and if she will be fine. "She is in there and I don't know." I nodded towards the room she is in and looked at Lia. "Why would she do that?"

I taught about it. She never said anything and pretend she's fine, but then she came to me and cried in my arms. Sometimes I saw her cowering up some bruises with make-up and...

Aleciano

I jumped out of my seat. "Where are you going?" Lia asked. "To deal with something." I hugged her quickly. "From now on it will be all fine. I promise." I pulled away. "Be safe." "Will do."

Get ready you motherfucker.

~•~•~•~

"Where is he?"

I flew through the door of the closest building that belongs to Roxy. The secretary looked at me horrified. "Aleciano! Where is he?" I yelled again. "In his office." She quickly answered.

I turned around to walk to the elevators but I turned back and her relieved face turned back to horrified. "In his office?" I asked with furrowed eyebrows. "Ye-es. I me-ean Ms Marquesa's office b-ut he said it's his now." She stuttered. And I got even more angry than I was before. "Oh not anymore." I said and disappeared from her sight.

~•~•~

"I'll kill you!" I yelled at him. "You can't and you know that Lucas." He smirked. "Take your things and go home Aleciano." I tried to calm myself down. "I still have two days." He stood up. "I don't care about your two days just go home!" And we're back to the shouting.

"And why would I do that?" "I don't want to argue Aleciano. Just. Go. Home. You were supposed to not touch her, and know I don't even know if she is going to wake up. I can't do anything because of you're dad and I don't want a war right know. So just go." I said frustrated.

"OK. Fine. I'll go. But this isn't over." He said and stormed out.

Now I can go back to my queen. I hope she is fine.