Bus Money // Troublemaker!Bench Trio // DSMP

6. Please... Dont leave me. Dont leave us.

The song above I just think fits this chapter :) /srs

You all have been so supportive so I decided to post this early! This might mean that there will be no chapter on Tuesday tho!

[[Rylan's POV]]

I need the pills. I want to die, make my death quick and easy. So many lines, on my arms. My legs. My gut. Lines. Covered in them.

     As I was curled up on the cold floor, I heard a knock, "Ry?" It was Toby, I can't let him see me like this. But I'm just so lonely. I looked up at the door, I pushed myself up and slowly walked towards the door. I stared at the doorknob, "Rylan? Please tell me you're.. alive," His voice was frantic.

     I unlocked the door, Toby pushed open the door, knocking me back a bit. He quickly pulled me into a hug, "I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD!"

[[Toby's POV]]

     Tears streaming down my face, I pushed opened the door and ran into Ry's arms. "I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD," I yelled. I'm not mad at him, I couldn't be. I just don't want to lose someone else. I can't go through that again.

     He squeezed me tightly, sniffles coming from him. I felt Tommy sit next to us, he joined in on our hug. I gripped tightly to Ry's shirt, "Please.. don't leave me. Don't leave us."

[[3rd Person POV]]

"Please.. don't leave me. Don't leave us." At that moment, Rylan looked down at Toby. Toby's legs wrapped around Rylan's waist, (ITS PLATONIC!!!). "I won't, I promise," Rylan whispered.

[[Tommy's POV]]

I rested my head on Rylan's shoulder, he wrapped one of his arms around me, pulling me in closer. His other arms wrapped around Toby, his cries (Toby's) were loud, they were screams at this point. I rubbed his back, trying to comfort them.

[[Toby's POV]]

flashback

"Mama?"
I saw her.
But she didn't look the same.
Her eyes were blank.
She seemed to be asleep.
"Mommy?"
I tried to shake her awake.
She wouldn't wake up.
"MOMMY!? PLEASE WAKE UP!"
She never did.

"DADDY, MOMMY WON'T WAKE UP!"
I ran to my father in tears.
"She's dead, Toby!"
I stared at him.
He had a drink in his hand.
"Mama's.. gone?"
"YES NOW LEAVE! I have important things to do!"

I slowly walked out of his office.
I ran to my bedroom.
I screamed into my pillow.
My mother was dead.
She killed herself.

Flashback over

     I can't bare to see Rylan go to the same way. My voice was giving out on me, my screams were now just tears and whimpers, "Shhh.. it's alright. I'm here now...shhh" I heard him gently whisper.

[[Rylan's POV]]

Toby's whimpers were soon just quite snores, he must have fallen asleep. I glanced over to Tom, his head buried into my neck, "I'm sorry, Tommy.." He looked at me, his eyes were glossy and his face was wet. I wiped away his tears, his lip quivered. "It's okay.. I promise. I won't leave."

I slowly stood up, having to carry Toby and Tommy walking closely beside me. I set Toby down on the couch and covered him up, still letting him cling onto my arm. "Um.. Ry, I saw your um- binder... in the bathroom. It was torn to pieces..." Crap.. I forgot I did that.

I wiped my eye with my sleeve, I couldn't cry now. "Um. Yeah-? What about it..." Tommy looked at me, "What happened?" We sat there in silence for what seemed forever. I let the tears roll down my face, "I-I got t-told th-that I'm not-not a man," I sputtered, trying to stop crying.

     Tom's face changed, he was filled with rage and sorrow, "Rylan.. you are more of a man then any guy I've ever met. No cis guy has to experience the pain of being trans." I looked at him, Tom slowly pulled me into a hug. "You are a man, and you are valid." My tears soaked into his shirt, "I.. I am?" "Yes, I would never lie about such a thing."

I smiled,

I'm a man.

Tommy yawned, I looked at him, "Why don't we all just go to bed. We've had a rough day." Tommy nodded, he let go of the grasp of the hug and he laid next to me. I stood up and picked up Toby and set him on the floor next to Tom and I. I covered the blanket over top of us, I stared at the ceiling and smiled.