Bus Money // Troublemaker!Bench Trio // DSMP

17. Confessions

TWs : panic attack, yelling, suicidal thoughts

[Tommy's POV]

"Seven."

"Seven.."

"Eight."

Soft hiccups.

"Nine."

Silence.

"Ten."

     I watched as Rylan's body went limp. I took a deep breath. Rylan's sibling started yelling again, his body tensed back up. I quickly, but gently covered Ry's ears.

     I heard a muffled mumble, "What did you say, Boss man?" Ry lifted his head to look at me, "I don't think I want to live anymore."

     "What-?" I stutered out. He looked at me with a blank face. "Nevermind, i'm sorry." "Rylan- you don't mean that do you?" He shrugged, "Sometimes it can be the only option." 

Time skip cause i had nothinng else

     Eret had helped us find a new apartment, which was very appreciated. After we finished buying some acctual furniture, Ry opened up about what happened that night. 

     "So- that fight was with my sister, Ivory. I haven't seen her in," he counted on his fingers, "3 years. And she was pretty much just getting mad at me because of some stupid lie." "I didn't know you had a sister," Toby said. Ry smiled a bit, "Sorry that that just came out of the blue. I didn't know how to bring it up." "You're alright bossman," Toby smiled, i nodded in agreement. 

     Silence filled the room, i broke it by saying, "I have 8 siblings and i'm the youngest." Toby and Rylan looked at me, "Child." I flipped them off laughing. 

[[Toby's POV]] 

     The rest of the night was filled with confessions, laughs, tears. I opened up about my mom, Ry talked about how he got the scars on his face and how his family IS LITERALLY RICH, Tommy mentioned his thearpist that he goes too. Tonight is good, if my life felt like this night, I would be so much more stable. Maybe we'd all be stable, I could have my mom and dad back, Ry could go on T and get top surgery, Tommy wouldn't have to wonder why his siblings are "so much better" than him. 

     But then i would have never met my best friends. I wouldn't have met Tommy on that park bench. Rylan would have never saved me from committing twice. I wouldn't know them. Its funny once you think about it, i felt a smile creep up onto my face. 

     "Whatcha thinking about, Tubs?" I looked at Tommy, "Nothing much, just questioning life." I looked at Rylan. I looked Tommy. I tried to imagine myself. I wouldn't change my life for the world. Im content with just Rylan, Tommy, and I. Me, Tommy, and Rylan. I hope that they're as content as me.