The queen of the Horn - A suspian fanfic

Greatest love of all

'Good morning' I whisper when the sunlight wakes me up. It is streaming through the windows, making me feel lighter than air. It is now three weeks later and Caspian has been sleeping next to me every night since the first time he did that. Caspian pulls me tighter against his chest and kisses the top of my head. 'Good morning my love' his accent rings in my ears as he strokes my cheek with his thumb. 'I feel...' I start. Caspian looks in awe at me, just awake but I can see his love for me. 'You don't have to say anything, love. I am here' he states as he once again kisses my forehead. 'I know, but I slept for the first time without a nightmare. When you hold me, I feel so much lighter' I spill out and look away from his brown orbs. 'You do?' He sounds so afraid but with a hint of happiness. 'Yes' I'll say as I move forward and kiss him on the lips. His arms tighten more around me, holding me closer if that is possible. 'By the mane, I love you Susan' He states as we pull back. 'I love you too'
I flinch when I hear someone behind us clear his voice. 'Good morning to you too lovebirds' It is Peter's ruff voice. 'Peter!' Caspian releases me quickly and moves backwards on my bed, which causes him to fall off the bed. I gasp, yelling his name. Peter's loud laugh fills my room as Caspian pulls himself on the bed once more. He slept in his clothes from yesterday and on the blankets as the gentlemen he is. So technically Peter has nothing to say. 'Easy Caspian, I am just happy for you' I turn to face my brother, whose eyes are for the first time twinkling with joy and mischief. 'I came to ask if you were feeling well enough to attend breakfast with us or if you wanted breakfast in bed?'
'I want to eat my breakfast downstairs'
'I'll see you in a half hour then' Peter winks. 'Caspian' acknowledges him. In the last three weeks Peter told me he sees Caspian more like a brother and friend and that makes me so happy! I look towards my love and he nods happily, pulling me towards him. And with that Peter leaves with a smile on his lips, closing the door behind him.

'Good morning' I say more cheerfully when I enter the dining room. I am feeling more like myself every day and it helps than I have Caspian. 'Good morning!' Lucy chirps cheerfully as she dances into the dining room. She wraps her arms around Edmund's shoulders and kisses his forehead while he is eating his breakfast. I chuckle at the sight and sit down. She comes over to me and kisses my cheek as she plops down on her chair. She starts loading her plate full with eggs and pancakes. I brush a lock of dark hair away from my face and my fingers rest a moment on the long scar on my forearm. His face flashes in front of my eyes and my body tenses with fear. I grit my teeth. Damn I am fine, he is dead. I am okay.
'How do you feel today Su?' Edmund asks as he swallows his fourth pancake. 'Great! I can finally eat something without wanting to vomit' I say while I load my plate with eggs and toasted bread. Peter stretches across my plate and grabs my hand with a smile. 'I love you' He says while squeezing my hand, his eyes caring and mischievous. 'I love you too' I lean over my plate to kiss his cheek. He laughs and ruffles my just made hair.
I jump a little when a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist from behind the chair and warm lips are pressed against my cheek. Two weeks back I would cry out and start to tremble but now, I know that my Caspian and my brothers and sister are doing everything to keep me safe and healthy and that they love me. And I love them. 'Good morning love' Once again his heavy accent whispers into my ear and my heart flutters, I turn to face him and kiss his temple. My whole body aching with love. 'Morning' I say happily as Caspian takes his place next to Peter's side. Breakfast passes peacefully, something a bit of toast of muffin was flying across the table at Edmund's face after a particularly rude remark, but that was normal.

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Hours after breakfast we sit in the farthest corner of the garden. I love it especially because this piece of garden is completely unchanged from the Golden Age. I sit against the grey stone wall, what is crumbling and fallen, ivy and roses are climbing up the wall and spiraling across the stone. The old stone bench is still standing there and Peter is sitting there with Lucy half on his lap while Caspian is sitting next to me and Edmund is laying in front of me with his head on my lap. 'Ed' I laugh as my younger brother sighs happily and snuggles his head in the soft fabric of my skirt. 'Shut up Su. Your dress is so soft' he lazily says, closing his eyes and letting the sun hit his face. He looks so much younger now. Peter leans forward as far as he can before Lucy falls from his lap to ruffle Ed's hair. Caspian is in his turn playing with my hair, twirling and twisting it. Peter snorts. 'Cas, Narnia loves a king who can braid'
I smack Peter's knee in response. 'Pete! At least he did not cut off nine inches of my hair when I was asleep!'
'He did that?' Caspian asks with a glimmer of mischief in his eyes. I nod. Edmund burst out laughing and I see that the tears are rolling over his cheek while Lucy just smiles happily. Peter huffs and shoves Lucy playfully off his lap so she falls on her bum on the grass. 'I was drunk! I didn't mean to cut off that much! I was mad at you for eating the last muffin' He exclaims and Caspian joins Edmund in his hysterical laughter. 'When did you do that?' Lucy says laughing as she stands up from the grass. 'I think that it was one of the first times I was really, really drunk.... The third year of our rule' Peter says as I see his mind drifting off. I push a still laughing Ed from my lap and see that he is wiping the tears from his cheeks as I move towards Peter. I try to not cry out as sometimes my body still aches from the pain. Luckily the most bruises are gone and the heavy once are now green and purple but the most damage is in my head. I jump easily and get a panic attack from time to time. But with Caspian around I don't have them that often. 'It is alright Pete, I remember the first time I was drunk...' Peter suddenly looks cloudy but I know why. He and Edmund had a fight with a nobleman from Archerland. He touched my bum while dancing and tried to kiss me after but luckily I screamed and the boys came to rescue me. After that I vowed to never drink too much again. But I push the memory away and shiver from the cold wind, the sun is behind the clouds and the sun is setting. 'Come' I say to them, trying to find a new topic as they all stand up and stretch. 'I want to ask Su something, about tomorrow' Caspian suddenly says as I want to walk inside. 'We see you in a couple of minutes then' Lucy chirps happily as she dances her way inside with my brothers on her heels. Peter smiles at me and Edmund winks.
Okay..

Caspian steps forward, wrapping his arms around my waist and brushing his lips against my own. 'What do you want to ask... so far I know we would do it slowly, yes? No balls, no meeting... just our family' I whisper in the kiss. The soft wind blowing my hair in his face, what was making him laugh and oh his beautiful laugh. He rests his head on my shoulder, breathing deeply in. 'You are the strongest person I have ever met'
'Oh.. and why is that?'
'After all you have been through in the last weeks' he is tracing a faded bruise on my neck and I shiver. 'And yet you still find it within yourself to let me hold you like this, while I know the memories and the pain it causes you. You have been hurt so deeply and still you open your heart for my love' His sounds so full of admiration and I blink my tears away. I sigh. 'I let you in because I know you are different, different from any man I ever met. I love you Caspian and I know you love me' I say, sounding very small. Caspian pulls back and looks at me, wiping my tears away. He wraps his arms tighter around me and I relax in his arms as I rest my head against his muscular chest. 'Su, you are the most important thing in my life and I love you. I prayed to Aslan to bring you back and he did. And before I had nothing. But you have given me everything; a family, love, a life. When I am around you everything is sharp and bright and colourful! Without you everything is dull and I just love you. I love you so much, I am nothing without you' He says shakily and I pull back, only to see that he is holding a gold with a small diamond ring in his hand. I gasp as Caspian continues. 'Susan, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I promise to love you forever and I want to wake up next to you every morning. I want to raise my children with you and to grow old with you' He whispers. Oh the world around me begins to spin and it is because of his arms around me otherwise I lay on the grass already. He offers me the ring with a big smile on his face.

'Marry me'

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Thank you all for reading! I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did while writing!
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