Is It Really You ??

33. Decision

Rudra and  Richa both were sipping their coffee, sitting around the kitchen table.

It's been a week since Rishi got into the accident. he was better now and got discharged from the hospital two days ago.

He was very quiet from last few days, he just answered when ever Richa or Rudra ask something from him but he never tried to start a conversation nor participate in any if Rudra tries to indulge him.

"I am worried about Rishi "

Rudra said putting his cup down

"I know and I am worried about him too, he is too quiet.... "

Richa replied

"His silence is scaring me "

Rudra said rubbing his face with the palm of his left hand

" Give him some time Rudra.... All this, is too much for him to accept. he will adjust himself with his new life with time and we will always be there for him "

Richa held his hand and rubbed his knuckles with her fingers

"We will never leave him alone, Right?? "

Rudra asked with so much hope in his voice

"Never... "

Richa replied with conviction

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Rishi didn't come out for breakfast and Rudra was more tensed because of that

"Rudra.... Just go and call him out for breakfast.... He has to take his medicine on time "

Richa spoke from the kitchen

Rudra nodded his head and walked towards Rishi's room
He knocked on the door but there was no reply, he called Rishi's name.....
But all he got in return was silence

Rudra panicked

He tried to open the door and it slid open easily

Rudra walked inside and found the room empty, he checked in the bathroom but Rishi wasn't there either

Rudra was scared.... He was hurrying out of the room when an envelope on the bed side table caught his attention
He walked around the bed and snatched up the envelope, his name was written over it in Rishi's handwriting

Rudra's heart started beating uncontrollably and he opened the envelope with trembling hands

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Richa was waiting at the breakfast table for Rudra and Rishi,  it's been more than half an hour since Rudra went in Rishi's room to talk to him.

Richa was waiting patiently because she knows that Rudra and Rishi needs this talk more than the breakfast

Suddenly Rudra came out of the room with tears flowing down on his cheeks he looked so shaken, Richa stood up and walked towards him

"Rudra.... What happened?? "

Richa asked alarmed

Rudra looked at her with blank eyes and sat down on the chair at the dining table

Richa followed him and sat down beside him

"Rudra....please tell me what happened?? "

She asked again

Rudra didn't say anything.... He just handed her the letter he found in Rishi's room

Richa looked at the letter in confusion but still held it in her hands and started reading

' Rudra and Richa.....

                   I don't know what to say to you guys right now.....  Everything is so messed up and I am still unable to remember anything from my past....  And now after knowing about my life from you.... I am afraid to get my memories back .... They will only burden my pain and suffering more.... And I don't think I will be able to live with the heartache that follows.

            You guys are great..... You helped me a lot..... What you guys have done for me is more than enough I don't think I will ever be able to payback in any way. 

You both made me feel so loved and wanted, I never doubted that I didn't belong here but I can't ran away from the truth forever.....
And the truth is that I am not Rudra..... I am not Richa's husband..... Nor  Rishi's childhood friend.....

If I stayed here... With you guys.... You will suffer.... Forever with me...

Because for the whole world  I am still Rudra, in appearance and so on legal papers..... I owned the identity of Rudra.... But I know that I am not....him

I owe you guys so much.... I wanted to see you happy....together with each other. And for that I have to leave....

I know you both will never let me go willingly that's why I am leaving without saying my goodbye in person, I don't think I will be able to leave if  I look into your pleading eyes..... They will make me weak.... And I have to do this...

Not only for both of you but for me as well.... I will never be able to move on in life if I stayed here... I will forever yearn for the memories of my past life

I think god has given me this new life with new identity because he wanted me to start my life again....
A fresh start

So I am going to explore this new life with conviction and compassion.

I am leaving..... But I am not leaving you guys forever.... I will be back when I find my purpose in life.

Richa..... I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable at sometimes..... But I never crossed any boundaries of dignity between us.  I request you to please forgive me for any mistakes I have made... Knowingly or unknowingly.  Please start your life again with your Rudra...... Marry him..... I will send the Divorce papers as soon as possible.

I love you both with all my heart and...
Rudra you really became my best friend.... You are the most important person in my life and you will remain as same till my last breath.

Good bye my friend my brother

           We will meet in future hopefully

Richa went still for sometime after reading the letter

Repeated mumbling of

"He is gone..... He is gone.... "

Broke her out, of her trance

She looked at Rudra who was sitting with wide tear filled eyes, staring at some blank spot at the ceiling

Richa stood up from her chair and hugged Rudra's trembling form,  keeping his head on her abdomen she encircled her arms around his shoulders. Slowly Rudra raised his hands and held her waist tightly, hugging her closer to himself, burrowing his head further in her stomach, Rudra started crying and Richa let him.....

It was the only way for him to lighten his heart from the pain of loosing someone he cared a lot like his own brother......

Brothers......Who shared each others body and soul

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A/n -- So Friend's this is the End.
Only epilogue is left. I want to thank each and every person who has read this story. Thank you all for your love and support 💓💓