I'm happy you're alive. {corpskkuno} [Corpse X Sykkuno]]

Chapter 17: coming out

"Thanks" he says slipping his rings back onto his hand, then looking back at me

"Are you sure you're okay? I mean the things he said are pretty rough, '' corpse asks, looking at me with concern. Great, I made him worry.

"I'm....okay I'll get over it you know?" I told him. giving him a soft smile trying to be convincing.

Clearly, not working. corpse keeps holding eye contact like he knows I'm not.. but doesn't want to say anything because he doesn't want to push anything.

"What are you guys doing?" A voice called over from the front of us. I wipe my head around to see rae. With a confused looked on her face. with toast and kade behind her, of course Kade has a slight grin on his face.

"Oh uh nothing" I tell her as she stares at me for a second, and shrugs it off. all of them taking the seats next to me and corpse.

"How are you feeling ?" Toast asks me.

"I'm okay just shooken up I guess" I mentioned. as I can feel corpse eyes flicks to mine, I turn away fast trying to avoid the tension,

"So is it true sy?" Rae asks softly. clearly showing to try not to be rude like she's walking on eggshells.

I look at her with a confused look. when it hit me... that my dad called me a fag. is she asking if I'm gay? I start to shake slightly

"It's okay if you are, there is nothing wrong with that." Kade tells me basically repeating what he told me earlier. like he's trying to tell me it's okay to say.

"I'm not gay... but I am bisexual which I think you guys know what that means but means I like both....... genders" I hesitate. my eyes falling to the floor.

"" Oh twinises! "Rae says making me look at her with a shocked face,

"Oh you didn't know I'm also bi so totally I support you and I think everybody else does too! "Rae says, trying to reassure my doubts.

"Yeah I mean who cares. if you wanna be with a girl go with it or with a guy for with it.. or a none bindery, dude go for it y'know" toast says leaning back into the chair,

"Best of both sides" corpse says, making everybody giggle a bit.

After talking to them about everything it makes me feel better for who I am

"Have you thought about telling your supporters yet? "Rae asks me

"No not yet.... Idk when or if I'm going to" I tell rae looking at her.

"You should try and do it tonight. I mean what's the worse that can happen if they leave then they were not real fans anyways y'know" toast states looking over,

"Should I come out tonight? "Thoughts ran through my head. What if they react the same way that my father did? but I have support of my friends

I honestly just wanted them to stay friends with me. I noticed that after I told them, it was like a weight being lifted from me. like I'm able to breathe a little more easily.

"Okay...I'll try and do it tonight." I tell them,

As they get all excited for me. especially rae but I know the others supported me too,

I can do this,

Kade told me to go ahead home so I can start on my stream, and that he would take care of mom when I'm gone. I go with corpse having him drop me off at my house,

It's a bit of a awkward drive making me think maybe he doesnt support me maybe he is disgusted by me or embarrassed by anybody seeing me with him,