Sweet Salvation |✎

Chapter 34

ABRIELLE MILLER

I was sitting there on the bed,staring in the space I was tired,exhausted.I didn't know what to do and how to save myself.

I was drained of energy,tired of fighting back.I miss him so much and I don't know how long I can go without seeing him,looking in his eyes that never cease to make me feel giddy.I miss him and just the thought of him make me wanna breakdown in tears.It was too much for me.

I felt shivery and nauseous all of sudden.I've been feeling like shit since the early morning and I have no idea why.Maybe it's just stress or maybe I didn't eat well. Let's say both.

I don't wanna go to the dinner tonight and mingle with "Jackson's mafia members" because I simply don't care about him.He just wants me to avenge something he couldn't get.He's stealing me unwillingly from Mason. It's either life hates me for absolutely no reason or maybe it's just my demise.

 I rushed to the restroom and threw up a meal I didn't remember eating.I was gasping for air by the time I finished.
My head still hurt, and I felt slightly dizzy and disoriented.I don't know what's wrong with me maybe I should tell Jackson but no I don't wanna see the face of "El diablo" I hate him to the core but again what if there's something wrong with me.

Maybe I should speak with him...and to my dismay before I know it I was knocking on the door,my brain was foggy and I couldn't think straight.The door was peeled open as my vision blurred and dark dots danced before my eyes.

"J-jackson there's something wrong with me" The feeling momentarily increased and I couldn't breathe.I felt like I was floating in a superficial place I could see Jackson's lips moving rapidly,he was shouting but all I could hear was the ringing in my ears.I couldn't focus it was too much for me and I felt as if I was swallowed whole by the black hole.I couldn't see,breathe or even move.

I didn't know I was crying until I felt the hot scorching tears streaming down my cheeks.Is this the end?Me dying in the arms of another man not my Mason? If this was the end I don't want it. We expect too much from this life but all life gives us is pain. Constant pain.

I felt the plush comfort of a bed beneath me as Jackson tucked me warmly under the covers.

"Abrielle baby look at me please look at me"I could feel it in his soft kisses on my temple,in the way he whispered my name that he cared about me but the real question is why?

"STACEY CALL THE FUCKING DOCTOR RIGHT NOW"He was making gestures with his hands as he lifted my head and placed it on his lap

"Keep your eyes open for me lilla du"
{little one}He gently stroked my hair, his voice soft and close to my ear.

I felt relief seep through my body,but not the same feeling that Mason gives me but nonetheless I felt comforted,
safe in a way.

I wanted to close my eyes so badly but I kept them open.My thoughts went to Mason and I closed my eyes as tears formed.

Is he searching for me? Does he love me? Did he do the dirty with Stacey or it wasn't him who gave her the hickeys. He promised right he wouldn't do that to anyone besides me?Right?

I didn't notice that the doctor was checking my vitals until I felt the needle plucking my skin.The doctor gave me a warm smile before checking my temperature

"She seems perfectly fine to me but she shouldn't stress herself out since you're expecting.I prescribed her some vitamins that will help her during  her pregnancy."The doctor said with a wide grin stretched on his face

"Take care of her son"He pat Jackson's back while my eyes grew bigger than sausages.

Pregnant
WITH
MASON'S
CHILD
I am pregnant.I need to escape from here as fast as possible I need to get away from here.My child needs his dad

I didn't notice that the doctor took his leave, and that Jackson has been pacing the room back and forth,clenching and unclenching his fists.

"You're pregnant from that son of a bitch"He all but shouted at me,his face was a dark tinge of red.He was furious
but what's wrong with him is he bipolar or something?? Mason is my boyfriend and I want to carry his child why does he have a problem with me being knocked up by my first and last love?

"I WANTED YOU TO CARRY MY CHILDREN IN YOUR WOMB NOT THAT BASTARD OF A MAN"I froze with fear and his voice leaped an octave

He is mentally unstable I don't even know the guy or anything about him_and he wants me to carry his children.

"Why do you want me?"I muttered under my breath, and somehow he heard me

He took my chin in one hand and turned my face so that he could look into my eyes before whispering "Because he owns you"

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