Two years ago, for the sake of their company, Jennie Ruby Jane Kim is forced to married her arrogant and possesive wife, Lisa Manoban. For Jennie, life as her wife was simple and quiet. Her wife doesn't pay attention to her. She could not feel love...
"Dad please I won't let this company collapse." I stood up and peeked at the city outside. I will not let this company fall. I build this with my own sweat.
"I'm not pertaining to the company. It's you Lisa. It's been eight years. You always go to work, drunk and you are getting worse. I don't know what to do with you. Just accept it Lisa." Damn. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes and remembered how she left without saying goodbye. My head still hurts because of my hang over.
"Accept what Dad?" I ask in the other line. I'm in call with Dad.
"She will not come back."
"She will. Yes she left me but I can feel it. She will come back to me. Only me Dad."
Even if I can't find her, I'm sure she'll come back here. I don't know but I feel it.
"How can you be so sure? Lisa we can't find her. You almost tour the whole world just to find Jennie." he said.
I took a deep breath. I miss my Jennie. When will she go home?
"I'm leaving tomorrow going to Cambodia and no one can stop me Dad." I said with my firm voice. I heard his sigh. I'm sorry Dad but I love Jennie so much.
"Is she there?"
"Not sure but I'll take the chances." I replied.
"Stop this Lisa. You're wasting your time. There's more important things to do."
"Jennie is my top priority." I said in a serious tone.
"Wherever she is now, I'm sure she's fine. Take a look at yourself Lisa. Fix yourself. If she does come back, do you think she'll be glad that you look like that? A mess." Dad said. I want her to see me like this, so that she will be upset and regret that she left me. Maybe she'll come back to me again. I mad at her but my bereavement prevails. Damn her. I want to punish her when she comes back. Yes, I'm mad but I miss her so bad.
"Dad please ... just call me again tomorrow. I need to work."
"All right Lisa. Take care love you."
"Love you too Dad." I said and turned off the call. I don't want us to fight. I approached the beverages stand and poured a glass of whiskey. I drank it quickly. I sat in my chair. I'm longing for her. I opened my phone and went to my gallery. I looked at the pictures of us there.
Why? Why did you leave?
After 8 years, It's still you Jennie. It never changed. You are still the woman I want.
If parallel universe exist, I will still choose you Jennie, to be my lover, my wife and my woman whom I want to spent my life with.
Every time I drink alcohol and wake up in the morning without you by my side, it hurts.
Why didn't you stay? why didn't you listen to me?
I looked for her everywhere but I could not find her. Someone big is protecting her. I can't contact her and Gio said she might changed her number and she deactivated all her accounts. I did everything I could but nothing, I can't trace her location. I almost went crazy when she left me. How did she do that? She was able to leave me, but I'm not, just by imagining it, feel like I'm going to die. The hopes of her that she will return give me reason to live longer. The more painful is when she signed the divorce papers. I felt my heart ripped inside when I saw that. It was easy for Jennie to let me go.
I drowned myself in alcohol just in case the pain would go away and I could find the answer to my questions. I hope she stays. I hope she listened to me that day because I will say to her that I love her.
I didn't sign it. I will never let her go.
I'm still a mess until now and become the worst when she's gone.
How? How can I get up if the person I love left me? the person I love who give me strength, left me? How?
All I'm asking for her is to stay, but she didn't. Yes I will admit I was late. If maybe I said it earlier that I love her, maybe we are happy now. Maybe we already have a family. My tears rolled down to my cheeks and flowed one after another.
"I was the happiest when I'm with you hon." I whispered looking at her picture, with her gummy smile.
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"Come back to me Jennie. Please come home to me." I beg looking at her picture. I burst into tears. I shouldn't have hurt her. I should have taken care of her. Every day I regret not telling her how much I love her.
"Come back home to me Jen and I will always repeat and whisper to you that I love you." I said gripping the phone tightly, longing for her smiles, hugs, kisses, and caresses. My cries filled the entire room. The pain stays when she disappeared.
