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Armin
Sasha's surgery is today, my nerves are all over the place. She's in pre-OP right now. Everyone is sitting together in her room with Dr.Smith.
"There is a very low chance that this surgery could go wrong an even lower chance when I'm doing it. So please calm down you guys, especially Eren and Historia, it's not good for your hearts."
"Dr.Smith we trust you it's just that she's so happy to be healthy again so we just don't want this to go wrong." I say while fiddling with my hands. Eren notices and slides his cold hand into mine. I squeeze it in response and take a breath.
"Please call me Erwin. And I promise I will do my best to fulfill her dreams." He gives us a warm smile, "Oh would you look at that, time to start her surgery. I'll have Hange give you updates." He walks out of the room and swiftly turns the corner disappearing from our sight.
Connie is sitting over in a corner with his knees to his chest. I'm not sure how much of the situation he understands but I do know that he's worried. Definitely more than the rest of us.
"Hey Connie honey you should probably get some sleep." Historia says in a low sweet tone.
"I don't know you, you don't get to tell me what I need!" He yells and puts his head back down on his knees. The last few days he's been having short bursts of anger, not to mention the fact that he barely knows who we are anymore.
"Babe I think it's best you leave Connie alone." Ymir places her hand onto Historia's shoulder gently. Historia takes a deep breath and nuzzles her head into Ymir's chest.
"Hey Armin, did you bring the book?" Marco asks.
"Uh yeah I have it right here." I pick up the book that's laying beside me and hold it up.
"Connie likes it when you read maybe that'll calm him down."
I nod my head and remove my hand from Eren's. He lets it go and instead rests his head on my shoulder. I open the book from where the blue bookmark sits and begin to read.
Eren
I know I shouldn't be here, laying on Armin. But I can't bring myself to distance myself from him. I know I'm gonna regret it one day but for right now I'll keep my head here while he reads the book.
Ever since that conversation I had with Sasha a few days ago I've been with Armin. I would watch him sleep after he got his Chemo cause it tired him out. We would watch the Simpsons before bed and pick flowers in the garden. Hange is convinced I have a crush on him, which isn't completely wrong but it just can't happen. So instead I'll hold his hand and lie on his shoulder and watch cartoons with him and listen to him read a boring book that I'm not actually interested in but I still listen because I like hearing his voice.
Everyone soon falls asleep (besides Ymir) so Armin puts the bookmark back in the book and then closes it. He rests his head on mine and I feel him let out a breath. "Eren."
"Yes?"
"You're beautiful."
"You think so?" I ask. Does he really think I'm beautiful? My skin seems to get paler by the day and the bags under my eyes get darker. My hair is a mess and I'm always wearing sweats and shirts that are two sizes too big. How could he think that is beautiful?
"Yeah. I like when you take your hair out, I like the way your eyes look in the sun, I like how comfortable you look in your hoodies, and I love your laugh."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Cause I wanted to tell you before my brain stops working and I forget." He laughs a little.
Armin's Chemo wasn't working, it just made him unnecessarily tired. Every now and then he stumbles when he walks and I have to help him a little. The doctors say his tumor is spreading. When Armin heard that he was silent, there was no light around him, there were no thoughts behind his eyes, it was just nothing.
"You're beautiful too Armin." I whisper.
"I know Eren, I know."
A/n you made it through another chapter! Let's hope you get through the next onecause I did not, I had a lil depression Session but I'm good now and ready to break your hearts 😁
