I Need You to Stay

Chapter 24

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*2 months have gone by*

I looked up and wiped my tears away quickly before Malcolm noticed I was crying. He was walking across the shop towards me. We've been getting along better for awhile. Since my dream I've been less harsh on him. I'm still wondering why I get warm and red when I'm around him but I try my best to ignore it and keep reminding myself that he's a douche bag.

"What's up?" Malcolm leaned on the counter across from me.

"Nothing, why?" I pushed my hair away from my face

"You're crying" He said obviously. He pointed at my eyes and rolled his eyes

"Really? I didn't notice, thanks for informing me

"Oh shut up. Just tell me why you're crying?" Malcom leaned on his propped up hand.

"Why would you care?" I asked

"Because I'm bored" Malcolm looked at his nails and started biting them

"I think Gerard is definitely cheating on me" I looked down

"How do you know?" he looked up suddenly getting more interested.

"I'm not sure, but all the signs are there. Since I left him and Lynz have been getting closer. He hasn't been skyping me that much..."

"That doesn't mean he's cheating on you. That could mean different things" Malcolm looked at me

"Okay, what about this. When I skyped him last night he didn't answer but then he skyped me back immediately with Lynz at his side saying he was "watching" a movie" I said air quoting when saying movie. "Plus Lynz had her arm hooked through his" I said in anger.

"Yeah, that is a problem" Malcolm said

"Have any advice?" Hoping that he would tell me to do something about it

"Nope, sorry you're on your own there" Malcolm patted my shoulder walked into the back. I scowled at him while repeatingly saying "cunt" in my head

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That night I stared at my laptop waiting for Gerard to ring. I was fuming, as the day went on I got angrier. My stomach was twisted with fury. I wanted to cry so badly as well but I refused to breakdown in front of him.

I heard the familiar sound of Skype tone and clicked the bright green button. Gerard face popped up smiling innocently at me.

"Hi baby" Gerard waved

"Hey" my mouth twitched.

"What's wrong?" Gerard frowned

I took a deep breath to calm the nerves in my voice.

"Are you alone?" I whispered

He nodded in response "Lynz is gone out with the guys to get some food"

"You're getting too close to Lynz for my comfort. I know your old friends but I feel like your replacing me." I look down feeling all the anger disappearing. I looked up at the screen staring straight at Gerard.

I heard someone's girly  laugh in the background and saw he look up and smiled. She was there. I wanted to cry. I wanted to throw my laptop across the room. Instead I hung up. I didn't want to see him anymore. I didn't want to hear Lynz anymore. I just wanted my bed to swallow me and drown my pain..

For the next couple of weeks I ignored his texts, phone calls and emails. I knew he was cheating on me. Lynz was too close and Gerard was around her all the time. I kept thinking in my head that maybe I'm wrong but then  Lynz would pop in my mind and  hurt would spread through out my body.

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I opened my eyes to see my room light up and a vibration coming from my bedside. I rubbed my eyes and reached for my phone to see an unknown number come up. 

"Hello?" I yawned

"Lisa what the fuck is wrong with you?" I heard a familar voice shout out 

"What the fuck?! Gerard? Why the fuck are you ringing me at 3am!"

"I'm in Japan, Why are you ignoring me! What did I do wrong!?!?!" Gerard continued to scream

"I'm not talking to you like this" I whispered

"Fine... Ok" Gerard took a deep breath. "Why are you ignoring me?"

"I don't think we should be together anymore." I lied down in bed

"What.. Why?" Gerard voice went quiet

"I know what's going on Gerard. You might be across the world but I'm not a idiot." I said sharply

"Tell me what's going on then?" 

I didn't want to say to him. If I did I don't think I would be stable enough to wait the answer. Saying it out loud to him was too real.

"Lynz" I whispered

"What about her?" i could hear Gerard's heavy breathing

"You're getting too close to her" 

"Lisa, she touring with us" Gerard explained

"W-What?" I stuttered

"Yeah, I was going to tell you the night we last spoke but you hun-"

"Why? Why is she touring with you?" I asked getting more upset

"Because we went out for coffee when you went back home and she was complaining about being with her family too much so I had the idea of her coming touring with us plus I was missing you and she reminded me of you" Gerard said

"Oh.." Jealous started building up in me when I realized I couldn't go with the guys and she could. That's the different between her and I. She's a successful, beautiful musician and I'm just no body that has to work in a shop for the rest of her life.

"You have no reason to be mad at me Lisa. If you thought that I wasn't being loyal then you don't know me well enough. Lynz is a close friend of mine and she's happy for us. She's been helping me a lot when I started to miss you. She helped me not get depressed when I knew you weren't beside me anymore. But of course you would have to think the worst of me. I love you Lisa I do but I can't be with someone who is always thinking I'm always cheating. I'll be home for a couple of weeks for Christmas. I think we should talk then" Gerard said seriously

"Gerard, I'm sor-"

"Bye" Gerard cut me off and hung up. I sat there in my bed for a couple of minutes with the phone still up to my ear compenhending what just happened.