I Need You to Stay

Chapter 15

My laptop screen light up telling me Gerard was on Skype. I ran to it and answered it. I snuggled myself in bed glancing at the window to see the street lights come on.

"Hi" I looked down to see black hair around a white face

"Gerard... W-what did you do to your hair?" I asked in shock staring at the black strands around his face

"Oh, um...  I couldn't find the red dye I wanted in any of the shops over here and it was starting to go orange." He scratched his nose

"Oh, okay"

"I'm so sorry I didn't Skype last night. I went unconscious when I hit my bunk straight after the show. I've been really missing you." He looked down

"I'm missing you too, I was having a shit day yesterday anyway" I frowned thinking back to yesterday with the cafe guy

"What happened" Gerard moved the laptop on to his lap and adjust the camera.

"I was just having a depressing day" which seems to be happening everyday since he was gone "and Mom was giving me a lecture on how I have to carry on with life. Then I went to the cafe and I bumped into this guy who was an complete asshole." I sighed

"Awh. I'm not feeling the greatest either to be honest. I forgot how lonely touring can be even if I'm with the guys. I have a lot of free time on the bus when we're traveling." He pushed back his hair and looked over to the right, I heard someone mumble in the background.

"I wish I could see you. This is horrible"

"I know, I kno- Hi Lisa!" Frank put his face in front of the camera

"Hi Frank" I giggled

"Fuck off Frank, I'm trying to have a moment with my girlfriend" Gerard pushed Frank away

"Fuck your moment" I heard Frank reply

There was an awkward silence. Gerard had something on his mind but I knew he wasn't going to tell me. Gerard's face was pale against his black hair but there was something else that wasn't right. His cheekbones were sticking out more. Around his eyes the skin looked purple. He just didn't look healthy. I know touring was hard on him but I had a feeling that he wasn't looking after himself right.

"Gerard you look ill. Are you sick?" I broke the silence

"No. I don't think so" he answered sharply

"Are you eating?" I asked worried that he might be dieting again

"Yes I am! Jesus fucking Christ. Why is everyone so concerned if I'm eating" He cursed

"Sorry" There was silence for a few minutes

"So I was thinking you could come visit? We'll be free for a week to give us a break" Gerard said without looking at the screen

"Oh okay. When will that be?" I asked feel my heart beat fast just of the thought of seeing Gerard

"In two weeks I think."

"Great" I smiled

"Yeah, I'll arrange the flights." Gerard kept trying not to look at the screen. Since I brought up his weight he was being cold with me.

"Are you okay?" I blurted out

"Yeah I'm fine, just tired"

"What time is it over there?"

"Um... Eleven" I nodded "Well I better go" Gerard sighed looking at his hands

"Okay.... I love you" I smiled trying to end the talk on a nice tone

"Yeah, you too. Bye" He hung up and I was left there staring at the screen.

That night I twisted and turned wondering what was wrong with Gerard. I never saw him acting like this. I knew he was always sensitive about his weight but this is just out of character for him.

The next day was the usual. Mom and I were at the shop. We were making small talk when a customer came in. I looked up to see the cafe asshole walk in. We both groaned when we saw each other.

"What you want" I sternly asked wishing I could set him on fire

"Lisa, be mannerly to our customers" Mom smiled at him

"I would like to hand in my C.V and try and get work experience here" He smiled at my mom handing over an envelop.

"Ugh, kill me now" I mumbled

He kept looking at me while Mom reading his work experience form.

Okay um... Malcolm, I'll contact you in the next couple of days about it" Mom smiled

"Thank you" He smiled at Mom but giving me a smirk while he turned around.

I waited for him to exit the shop "Mom, you're not seriously going to have him here for work experience?" I faced her while she scanned his C.V

"Maybe, it'll be nice to have some help here"

"Mom we don't need help. We don't have any work for him to do here." I protested

"We'll see, okay?" She went in the back and put the C.V into her bag.

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For the next week I was getting more and more excited to see Gerard. Every time I Skype Gerard he looked more and more gaunt. It was starting to scare me how thin he was getting. Anytime I went near about his weight he would go against me and shut himself off. I wanted to meet not just because I missed him but also I wanted to know what was happening to him.

I sat in my bean bag reading my book when I got a Skype message

"Hey it's Frank, I need to talk to you asap"

I went on to Skype and rang Gerard which I'm guessing Frank is using Gerard's account. Frank immediately answered but wasn't smiling. In his eyes I could see he was freaking out.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked

"Lisa, I'm really worried about Gerard. Since we went on touring he hasn't been eating right. Actually screw that, he hasn't been eating at all. I have been watching him for the past couple of days and all I have been seeing is him drinking a shit ton of coffee and these little biscuits. I thought he was just home sick at the start and I thought he would snap out of it but he hasn't. I starting to seriously worry" Frank looked around wary of Gerard's appearance.

I knew it. I knew he was losing too much weight" I said to myself

"I think he's depressed. I think he needs you to be here. I'm not into this whole "I love you shit and need you to function" but the way Gerard is reacting to you not being here is starting to scare me. Lisa he needs you" I looked at Frank and saw a sense of panic from him

"I don't know" I really wanted to go but I couldn't leave my mom here.

 "Lisa, I'll pay for your flight over. Just please come over" Frank tucked his fringe behind his ear

"Okay okay. Um, I'll try sort things out."

I went to the living room to see Mom watching her favourite program "Hell's Kitchen".

"Mom can you contact Malcolm for the work experience? I think I need to leave early for the flight"

Ahh.. This chapter is shit. I wasn't sure where I was going with this. Poor Gerard. Anyway I might update tonight! I'm really dedicated to this story for some reason. I hope you're enjoying it. Please comment telling me what you think of it :3

Grace