I Need You to Stay

Chapter 16

I looked around to see if I saw any recognisable faces. There was so many people and I was scared. I wasn't good in big crowds. I felt my heart beat start to race. My palms began to sweat. I walked slowly away from the doors that lead to the air plane I came out of.

"Lisa!" I heard a familiar voice shout. I looked around and suddenly someone hugged me from behind.

I turned around to see Frank smiling back at me.

"Hey Frank" I giggled hugging him tightly

We walked out of the airport and got into a taxi. I looked outside the window watching people rush around while we drove away.

"How's Gerard?" I asked looking back at Frank

"He's... Not the best. When he's not on stage he basically lies in his bunk all day." I nodded in response. "I haven't seen he like this since I first met him."

For the rest of the car ride we didn't say anything. I just thought over and over what Frank just told me. I was afraid to see the state Gerard was actually in.

When we arrived at the tour bus my heart was beating way too fast. I ran on to the bus while Frank took my bags out of the taxi. Mikey and Ray looked up and smiled at me. I whispered them to be quiet not wanting Gerard to know I'm here. I walked up to where the bunks were. I stood on the bottom to see that Gerard was sleeping on the top bunk. I brushed his hair away from his face to see his cheek bones were sticking out. He didn't look healthy. His skin was a sick colour. It scared me to see him like this.

"Gerard? Baby?" I whispered stroking his black greasy hair. He moaned lightly and rubbed his eyes not knowing I was there. He sat up and looked at me for a couple of seconds. He looked in total disbelief.

"Lisa?" He looked over at Frank who was standing beside me.

Gerard looked at me and pulled me into a hug. His head in my neck.

"I miss you so much" He cried

"I miss you too baby" I whispered into his ear

We both started crying. We hugged for a good hour not saying anything but just getting used to each others company. I laid there in his arms on the bed.

"Gerard, I know there something wrong" I sat up facing him

"What you mean" He looked at me with an innocent face

"Look at you. You're a bag of bone. You don't look healthy Gerard. I know you aren't eating, Frank told me everything." I could see tear build up in Gerard's eyes.

"Is this the only reason you came over? To give me a lecture about my lifestyle?" Gerard spat

"I care about you and I don't want you to harm yourself Gerard." I looked down not wanting Gerard to get mad at me. "I'm sorry" I whispered

"Look, Lisa I'm fine. Okay? Yes, I have lost some weight that's because of touring that's all" Gerard pushing back his hair

"Bullshit" we looked over to see Frank leaning against the wall. "I have been watching you the last few weeks Gerard and you haven't eaten shit.

"Will all of you just FUCK OFF?!?!" Gerard got up and walked out of the bus. Frank and I looked out of the window to see him rush off towards town.

"Oh god, maybe coming here was a bad idea Frank" I looked down picking at my nails.

"No. It is. He just needs to stop fucking sulking and eat something. He needs someone to put him back together.

For the rest of the night I hung out with the guys.

"Hey Mikey" I smiled sitting beside him

"Hi" Mikey looked up from his comic and pushed up his glasses

"How you holding up?" I brought my legs up to my chest.

"I'm okay, could be worse. I'm just kinda worried about Gerard. He is always there for me, helping me. I- I can't help him. I don't know what to do" He closed his comic

"Mikey just being there you're helping him. We'll help him get through this okay?" I looked at him.

"O-okay" Mikey smiled weakly at me

I slept in Gerard bunk waiting to hear his footsteps walking through the bus. I tossed and turned around in the bed. I think I looked at the clock 50 times. At 4am I got up feeling that I wasn't going to go to sleep without Gerard beside me.

I walked around the bus a few times, breathing in the fresh air trying to clear my mind.

"Hey" I turned around to see Gerard looking down.

"Hi" I whispered back. I was too afraid to ask him where has he been.

"I'm sorry, I know there something wrong with me" Gerard just stood there. I felt sorry for him, he looked so helpless.

"It's okay, I just wanted to he-"

"I know" Gerard sighed quietly

We stood there in silence for a couple of minutes. I felt exposed and afraid that he wasn't standing close to me. He was too far away for my liking.

"I'm going to bed" He walked onto the bus

I didn't go to sleep for the rest of the night. I sat on the couch wanting to be at home. I know I wanted to be with Gerard yesterday but this is not what I expected for him to like this. I curled up on the couch and cried.

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Sorry I have'nt been updating! UGH.. I found this chapter really hard to write!! Anyhoo I didn't do a spell check so sorry for all the mistakes! I hope you're enjoying the story bye!

Grace