Drunk words are sober thoughts

Realization

Levi goes downstairs to the basement to see Eren during the middle of the night and finds him curled up closely hugging his knees to his chest, tears on his face and leaving a small stain on his bed. 'Gorgeous.' Levi thinks, 'How can something so violent, manipulative, and heartless be so beautiful, loving, and pure. I know his innocence is all an act but he's so hard to resist.'

Levi smiles a bittersweet smile before sitting on the edge of the bed and petting Eren's head and curling his hair at the tips softly. 'Oh Love, why'd it have to be you? Why'd you have to be so cruel? If only you weren't a cold hearted relentless monster, then we could be happy.' Tears fall, and soon, tears are streaming down Levi's face, be doesn't even try to wipe or stop them. Levi remembers something in that moment, something he'd forgot about in his anger.

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Light steps are heard as someone walks down the stairs to the basement. A dark shadow, barley visible heads to the torch and when lighting it Levi is revealed to be the shadow. Levi unlocks and opens the cell door, making sure to be as quiet as possible. He goes over to Eren and sits down on his bed. "Oh Eren." He mutters softly, hoping to not waking the sweet boy up. He smiles, a genuine real smile, before saying, "Just one more day until we reclaim your home my love." He says, 'My love' being said sweetly and lovingly. "Love you Capitan" Eren mumbles in his sleep, moving slightly to get into a more comfortable position. Levi's heart feels as if it's beating so fast it's bursting out of his chest. 'He- he loves me.' He thinks. A wide smile takes over his face, 'HE LOVES ME!' Levi is blushing and smiling madly, tears dripping from his face.

It was that night that Levi decided he would tell Eren he loves him, after the mission of course. 'I can't let love get in the way of my duties.' He thinks, his face now in a soft kind smile. 'BUT HE LOVES ME!!!' He continues to yell in his mind, not letting his previous thought now get in the way of his happiness. When Levi goes back upstairs and to sleep that night, it's with a smile on his face and the whole night he dreams about the happy life he'll have with Eren when everything is said and done and he swears that even once he wakes up the next morning, he can still hear the happy laughs of children running around and playing still stuck in his head.

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Levi's now sobbing softly, remembering the life he had wanted with his bright eyed brat. 'Why? Why? Why?' Is all Levi can think, his heart broken. 'Why'd Eren force me to choose? He must've loved me before that, so why not then? Why'd he choose his happiness over mine? Why'd he pressure me into choosing Arlert?' Levi is barley able to keep quiet at this point, one of his hand over his mouth, silencing his sobs, the other still playing with Eren's soft hair. 'Wait, it's not that he didn't love me, he still does! He didn't kill Erwin, he just wanted to make sure his friend would get out alive! Anyone would've done that, even me!' Guilt finally sets in as he realises what he's done, "Oh Sina," He mumbles, 'What have I done, I've forced myself onto him, told him he deserves it, told him that he was a monster, that everything, every death, was his fault. I've made him think he belongs to me and made him dependent on me, I've objectified him like some sort of toy and abused him, calling it Love and Punishment!'

"He's not the monster, I am." He says, quiet yet confident. "Cap'in?" Eren, from all the noise, has started to wake up. "Go to sleep Love, it's not morning time." Levi says, in the most reassuring tone he can use after the realization and reality of the situation finally sets in. He kisses Erens forehead, still playing with Eren's hair, not having once paused. Eren blinks tiredly before falling asleep, a content smile making it's way onto his face. Levi makes sure Eren's asleep before standing up and walking out of the cell, locking and closing the door.

As he puts out the torch and starts to walk upstairs he only thinks one thing, 'I'm so sorry mon souffle'

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WAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!😭😭😭 MY BABIES!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEARTTTTTTTTTT!💔💔💔 I'M SO SORRY!!😭😭

This short story is almost finished!! In just the next chapter or so I'll have finished the story and it'll be OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!😭😭😭

I'M SO SORRYYYYYYYYY!😭😭😭 I CRIED SO MUCH WHILE MAKING THIS I SWEAR THE WHOLE UNIVERSE WILL SOON BE DROWNED IN MY TEARS!!💧💧🌌🌌

Okay, I might be over exaggerating but I wasn't lying when I said I cried.😢 Also, this story IS in fact coming to an end, just a chapter or two more and it'll be over but don't worry! I'm already thinking of the epilogue!