Drunk words are sober thoughts

Two-Faced

WARNING! YOUR HEART WILL BREAK! HAVE 911 ON SPEED DIAL! But seriously, warning. Manipulative words from Levi and slight mentions of rape will be in here.

"AH!" Pain. That's all I felt waking up the next morning. I opened my eyes slowly, blinking away the fog. At first, I didn't understand what was happening, then it all came back to me. Last night. The commander. Armin. Levi. Everything hit me so quickly, and so did the pain. My back and legs still ached, I was so cold, my whole body felt like it was covered in blood and bruise's and scratches and other injures. 

"Huh. So your monster powers didn't heal you last night did they? Oh well, that's just to bad." I heard a cold, mocking voice state from above. I looked up, Levi. I flinched. I was terrified, what was he going to do to me? My eyes widened and mouth slightly parted subconsciously. "Don't worry love, I'm not going to hurt you unless you deserve it, like last night." He said, a warm smile and kind eyes on his face, a drastic change from the cruel, smirking, mocking, hate filled look I saw earlier.

"L-Levi?" I said, it came out as a question, although I had no questions to ask, even after everything that had happened just now and last night. My voice was hoarse and unsteady, my throat felt so dry, I didn't even have any saliva. I licked my lips then flinched at how dry both my lips and tongue were. "Oh dear, let's get you some water love." He said, handing a glass of water to me kindly. "Thank you." I stuttered out. I drank the water, making sure not to leave a mess or be greedy about it. his words from last night coming back to me.

"I'm only doing this because you got our commander killed, and that deserves punishment." "Your such a monster, the only reason I'm willing to touch you is because you need to be taught a lesson." "You know, I don't hate you that much for misbehaving, if you be a good boy then maybe I'll love you again." "Don't complain, your letting this happen."

I slowly handed the glass back to him, my hand shaking but firm to make sure I don't drop the cup. The next hour or so was getting me fed, washed up, and taken care of. Levi treated me kindly and lovingly, as if he hadn't caused all the pain he was now undoing with kind words and soft touches. 

"I love you right now." "Your being such a good boy for me right now Ren." "Your such a good boy right now." "Good job puppy." "Your doing so well." "I hope you keep being a good boy for me." "Wow, you actually hearing what I say instead of being an idio-Nevermind, good job puppy."

After all was said and done he took me to breakfast, his words replaying in my head. 'He said I was good! But, he also implied I was an idiot. But no! He was kind! He hurt me last nigh-NO! I let that happen, it's my fault.' It's my fault. That kept replaying in my head. 'He hurt me! I didn't want that to happen!' 'But then again I could of fought him. It is my fault. But he doesn't care. If I keep being a good boy he'll love me.'

In the end, I ended up firmly believing it was my fault. When we arrived to the breakfast hall everyone was there and eating, but it was quiet, and sad. No one even looked in my direction. I sat next to Mikasa and Armin but they didn't notice me to I had to tap on their shoulders before I caught their attention. The rest of the day was like this but, something felt, odd.

Everyone ignored me. Sure, no one talked besides the Hanji-san and Capitan Levi (but they were quiet and sad), but they were just going around me, not looking in my direction, being distant and awkward. I was tired of it, so I confronted them, asked them why they were acting like that, and told them that we should be comforting each other, not being complete ghosts!

"Sorry Eren, but, we don't think Armin was the right choice. Not that we don't like Armin! We love him! Really we do, but..." They didn't have to finish, "But you think Commander Erwin would have been a better choice, right." I said, I didn't ask them, I stated it. They flinched and I knew in that moment I was right. I ran. They didn't even try to call after me or move.

I ran to Levi's office, I had to know if I mad the right choice. "Capitan!" I yelled bursting in his office. I ran to his desk and slammed my hands on it! I was panting heavily, my head was down so I couldn't see his reaction. I wish I could, I wish I could so that I could run before I heard his response. "Do you think Commander would've been the right choice!? Am I really the person to blame for Humanity's extinction!?" He was silent for a moment, but I didn't dare look up to see his face. 

He got up, walked around the desk and turned me to face him, my side now facing the desk and the sunset coming in through the window in the middle of the room, like a scene from a play or book. He wrapped an arm around my waist, the other cupping my chin. He forced my to my knees. His hand that had been on my waist now on my shoulder, firm yet gentle, as his other hand stroked my bottom lip. He leaned down, "Of course you are Eren." His words pierced and shattered my already cracked heart. Tears dripped down my face. He leaned back up and wiped the tears off the left side of my face, the tears on the right still streaming.

He wiped the tears over my bottom lip, the salty taste reaching my tongue from my slightly parted lips. He continued, "You're a monster Eren. You killed so many people, Petra, Eld, Ouluo, Gunther, Erwin. So many other nameless soldiers killed for you. And yet your still worthless." He slapped me. The he leaned down, "But not to me." My breath hitched in my throat. "I've seen all of you, monster and human. But you have to prove your a good boy a do whatever I say, understand?" I nodded slowly. "Good." She said softly, all resentment and cruelty in his tone gone, now replaced with a warm, kind, loving, genuine sounding tone that made me feel warm and put butterfly's in my tummy. My heart felt as if it was being put back together with his kind words.

He kissed me, getting on one knee, as if he were proposing, 'What a nice thought.' My mind briefly thought. The kiss was deep, yet soft, slow, and passionate. But most of all, loving. It seemed like hours had gone by in seconds. We slowly broke apart, he chuckled and rubbed his thumbs over my cheeks, both hands now on my face. "You're so cute My Love." He said, still chuckling. I blushed and smiled sheepishly. He pulled me into a hug and one hand stroked my back while the other played with my hair.

I smiled contently, happily. I realized that the only person in the world who really mattered was Levi. He loved me even though everyone else thought I was a monster. Little did I know, he was also smiling, but it was a smile that turned into an evil grin, then a smirk. Levi's cold, piercing blue-grey eyes glinting in the moonlight of the window. 'He's mine now.' Was all Levi thought, as Eren fell asleep in his arms, feeling like he was truly loved for the first time in what seemed like forever.

What do you think Levi is planning!? Why is he suddenly pretending to like Eren? Will Eren ever realize it's not his fault? I hope so! I hope you liked this chapter! I had this idea for a while so I wrote it, read it, and published it within an hour!😅 I did sorta burn myself out though with all this thinking and stressing! See you in the next chapter!