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Alternate ending

I 100% did not update this work after months just to add an alternate ending and to tell you about my 100% nonexistent ao3 account that's username is: AshRiver_0909

Nope, not at all, but uh, if I did then this would be my user and underneath would be my alt ending. Be ready for tears.

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(Eren's POV)

I walked slowly through the crowd of people, I shiver from the cold. It's the middle of Winter and it's snowing. I look up at the moon and exhale softly. "Eren?" A voice says from behind me, a familiar voice. I freeze and turn around slowly. "L-Levi?" Behind me is Levi, my former abuser, rapist, and lover. He hasn't changed, his eyes brighten when he sees me, "Eren! It's really you!" He hugs me tightly and looks up at me, "I've been looking for you and-Eren? What's wrong?" He says, smile fading from his face as he sees my expression. 'Does he really think that I'd be happy to see him? That I'd be with him and everything would be okay?' I think.

"Levi. Get off me." "What? Eren? Are you okay? I thought you'd be happy to see me." He says with a frown, confusion and disappointment all over his face and in his tone. "Are you kidding me? You thought I'd be happy!? To see you!? My abuser and rapist!?" at this point I've forgotten that we were in public. "Eren I-" I pull myself away from his grasp, " You manipulated me and abused me! You ruined my life! Or at least what little bit of it I had left!" Tears are falling down Levi's face, he looks distraught, "Eren, I know, and I'm sorry! But I want to try again! I was confused and anger clouded my judgment! We died so we could be happy! Together! You promised that we'd be reincarnated in a world where we could be happy and live freely! That's what we want!" I feel a pang or guilt, sympathy, and regret. I did promise him that we'd be together, that I forgave him, but that was before I realized what he had done to me I don't think I can find it in myself to forgive him, not matter how clouded his judgment was.

"I'm sorry Levi, I really am. But you've hurt me too much too many times. I get that your judgment was clouded and that you weren't stable, and I don't blame you but I can't just forget all the things you did to me." I say, tears running down my face. Levi looks crushed, tears are streaming from his eyes, oh his eyes. Their so beautiful and expressive, gorgeous. Everything about him makes him look like an angel, his neatly trimmed dark hair, his perfect pale skin that glows in the moonlight with a slight pink blush from the cold, his sharp eyes filled with emotions, the tears streaming down his face, all of it is so perfect and innocent. He is anything but. "Eren..." He stumbles forward and grips onto my jacket, desperation on his face, "Please, I'm so sorry, I can't live without you. Please." He burys his face in my jacket and sobs. I can't help but feel sympathy and empathy for him, 'He's so confused, desperate, and honest. He really loves me.' I wrap one of my arms around him and hold his face with the other one, I smile soft yet sadly at him, "I'm sorry, Levi." I kiss him for the last time, soft and kind, trying to convey all my emotions. I pull back reluctantly after what feels like hours but in reality it's only been a few seconds, still to short of a time. He seems to have gotten the message I was trying to convey.

"I-I understand." He says after a few moments. I stroke his hair softly and he leans into my touch, "I'm sorry Levi, but you need to move on and honestly, so do I." He nods slightly, "Goodbye, Eren. I love you." He says, pulling out of my grasp, "Goodbye, Levi. I love you too." I turn and walk away in the direction I was originally going, I can still feel his gaze on my back for a few seconds. I look back when I can't feel it anymore, I look at him just in time to see him disappear into the crowd. I look forward and continue walking, with each step a piece of me breaks and I just know that Levi is feeling the exact same. I look up at the moon and sigh, tears still running down my face, I could still run after him, I know he'd hear my voice and come to me, but I don't. Still, I can't help but feel as if I'm making a mistake, as if I'm losing my other half.

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😭😭😭I'm crying so badly right now! God I just love ereri and to have such a sad ending is just breaking me! This was hard to write because I just love ereri and I know that some of you might have wanted to see Eren be mad and walk away without looking back but I just couldn't do it! It was to emotional! Thank you for reading!