The Body Swap Motive (KomaHina // HinaKoma)

PART 2 - Chapter 6

TW: eating disorder

-Hajime-

     The morning announcement.

     Just what I like to hear every goddamn morning.

     I try my best to ignore the bear's voice by hiding under the covers. However, it really doesn't help knowing that these aren't my covers.

     As soon as I duck under, a certain smell makes its way to my nose.

     His scent.

     It's not specifically bad, but it's not that great either. It's neutral. Just like him.

     Nagito isn't exactly the worst person on the planet. But then again, if I got to choose who I could swap bodies with, if I got to choose who I could be for a day, it definitely wouldn't be him.

     I decide that I might as well get out of bed. Once my feet collide with the ground,

my vision goes black.

     I can't see.

     A strike of nausea hits me.

     Why can't I see?

     I stand up, but that makes it worse.

     I'm blinking rapidly, hoping my vision will return. My legs start to shake.

     Then, it's over.

     The pain.

     It's over.

     I stand wide-eyed, still dazed. What just happened? I walk to the bathroom. What the hell just happened?? Does Nagito deal with this often? I look in the mirror.

     My face is pale.

     Not my face, of course.

     Nagito's.

     I walk out Nagito's cottage and see Kazuichi walking out of his. I greet him. I believe I startled him, though,  because he gives me a dirty look and walks faster.

     Nagito.

     I need to find Nagito.

     I stumble to my cottage, which Nagito is staying in.

     Nagito.

     I knock 5 times.

     Open the door.

     Open the door now.

     I feel like I'm about to pass out. I can feel my eyelids getting heavy. I can't though, not yet.

     I hear something.

     Behind the cottage. I hear talking.

     I need Nagito.

     I twist the doorknob and, surprisingly, it's unlocked. Lucky me. I walk into my cottage and walk to the backyard. I trip over something, but don't fall.

     I need to get to Nagito.

     I hear the talking.

"So, what were you saying?"

"Ah, right. Chiaki, there's something important that I really need to ask y-"

"Oh! Haji- er.. Nagito?"

     They turn their heads towards me, who's at the point of falling over.

-Nagito-

"Nagito."

     Hajime looks right at me. He looks really worn out. Chiaki senses the sudden mood change.

"Um, I'm gonna go play some games, you two can talk."

     She exits.

"Nagito," Hajime says again.

"When was the last time you've eaten?"

     I stare blankly.

     The last time?

     That's quite random. Last I checked, I'm healthy enough when it comes to eating.

"The day before this motive was announced, why?"

     It's true.

     It's not that Hajime hasn't eaten, either. I saw him snacking on some goldfish the day we swapped bodies. That's basically normal for me.

"Yeah, well I feel like shit! I've eaten enough food for a human to survive. Have you?"

     I don't know what he's trying to get from me. Did I do something wrong?

"Well?? How much food have you eaten in the past week?"

"Hajime, you're starting to sound like a scared mother."

     I don't even understand why he's asking. Why would he even care?

"For what it's worth, why do you even care about my eating scedule? It's not like it affects yo-"

     Oh.

     Because it does.

     Hajime looks absolutely pissed at me.

"Oh, I see how it is. You starve yourself half to death and then make your problems mine. Clever."

     What? No! I didn't mean to harm him! I could never bring myself to harm an ultimate like him.

     Wait.. what if he tries to harm me back as revenge?? No, no, no, nono,
I didn't mean it.

"No, Hajim-"

"Save your breath."

     And then he stumbles away.

...

     Goddammit. Why does trash like me have to ruin everything.

     I don't even starve myself. Why would he think that? Does he hate me that much? I eat enough. Skipping a few meals a day is just normal.

     I walk to the restaurant.

     Once I arrive, everyone else is there, except Fuyuhiko, of course. I notice Hajime stuffing his face with various foods. Kazuichi is looking at him weird.

     I try to sit next to Hajime, but Kazuichi pulls me aside.

"Dude, look at the guy."

     He uses his inside voice, for once.

"What's gotten into him? He's hogging all the food!"

"Hey! Le-"

     I imagine myself in Hajime's position. I look disgusting.

"How gross."

     It hurts me to insult someone so much better than me. Hajime is an incredible ultimate and doesn't deserve cruel behavior. However, I'm technically insulting my body, not Hajime.

"I know, right?"