ARCANE || J.JK ✔

11- can't resist

Jungkook's POV

I fucked up. This all happened in a very wrong way, and i know it even when i do not know what exactly happened. I have to speak to her regarding this matter. I get out my room, to the side and take out my phone from my pocket, to check the time. I sigh and walk down the stairs, feeling bad for her poor innocent self and hating myself like never before.

She rushes inside the kitchen again after seeing me, getting me to smile but curse at myself. I slowly enter the kitchen and i see her preparing some bread and jam. I go to her and stand behind to clear my throat, "i wanted to make you breakfast, honey." I step back, giving her space and she whirls around in a second, almost flinching. She raises her head to see me but doesn't look and instead sees my neck.

"Oh you're here. No, it's okay. I- this is enough." She stutters adorably but now does not have the courage to look in my eyes when it is not at all her fault. I look at her hands and i step closer, "have i done something wrong in my sleep?" I speak with concern, looking with a caring depth into her eyes and she makes it linger for some seconds before moving around to spread cheese on the bread. "No, you've not. Wh-" I cut her fright before she even finishes and i grab her arms to make her face me, "please tell, i know i have." I peek down at her parted lips, and i release her.

She remains quiet for some seconds until i bend and cup her face, "relax honey, say it." She speaks softly, "no you did nothing wrong, just...you slept on me and t- you kept your head on my chest so i- i wasn't able to breath. Just...this," I leave her face and hold back my desire to disappear in thin air. I step away from her and smile, lost and in bitter senses, "i'm so extremely sorry honey, i did not mean to....i just h-" She raises her head but now looks at me, smiling softly. "It's okay, i know you have a habit to cuddle something in your sleep. I have that habit too, we're even." The little fluffball makes me feel better with her sweet lilt and assuring words, but i can't help but feel even more bad.

I avert my eyes from looking at her one more time, in order to avoid remembering all the unrealities i saw in my sweet dreams that are too breathtaking to be real. She tilts her head but turns around and continues to make her food. I step ahead and lean forth, my veins not controlling my actions and her small figure tempting me a lot but i still order myself to cease my emotions. "You're sure i didn't hurt you?" I whisper in her ears, wanting to know more about her feelings but she shakes her head, "n- no, you...did not." She tells me, while her loss for words speak a different story.

"I am sorry dear." I cup her nape to press my lips faintly on her cheek and go away from that place, scared to get closer to her and distress her. I mess up my already messed up hair and fall down on the sofa, my head aching since i haven't taken my first puff of the toxic smoke, habituated to it badly but less than that way i am used to having her close to me. "You can go and rest, i walk to sch-" I cut her words, "no, i will drop you." I get up and watch her wearing her thigh high socks, while she chews the bread. I stand up and walk to the cabinet to take out the car key and house key, i oblige my eyes to stay anywhere but on her.

She zips up her hello kitty red hoodie, underneath which is her uniform and she walks to me, "let's go?" She looks at my chin, speaking. I hum and go forth to go out of the house, with her behind me and i lock the door. I whirl around but unfortunately clash with her and she stumbles back, almost falling down the porch if i hadn't caught her arm. She gulps but stand up properly and walks silently to the car I would just go back in time and let her go to her bedroom, if i could.

I look up at the sky covered in grey clouds, feeling a lot of emotions mixing in my blood at once. I open the door for her and she sits in, her checked pleated skirt too short but since the socks are present, i don't say anything. I close her door and get to my seat and i sit inside too. She does not say anything but holds her bag in between her thighs to put on her belt and then she places it on her lap.