Avengers My Angel

Ch. 15 "The Truth"

                                                     Jamie POV 

I laid in bed it was late, I listened to the clock tick in the room, the star globe lighting up the ceiling with stars, 

I looked at the ceiling looking at all the stars, 

Tony got it for me due to my little fear of the dark, which is only because of the nightmares which are memories, 

How am I going to tell James, 

Tell him that I was working for HYDRA, 

I sighed, I guess I better get this over with might as well rip this off like a bandaid, 

I slowly pulled the covers off of me, 

I jumped out of the bed, walking down the hallway, walking into James's room, 

I see him sitting on the couch watching TV with Steve they sleep even less then I do, 

I stood there okay, you can do this, just talk to him, 

No I definitely can't I thought 

Slowly I spun around about to walk out of the room, 

"Jamie?" I hear Steve, 

I scrunch my nose, 

Dang it, I thought 

My head hung, 

Maybe if I fall flat on my back and play possum they will go away, 

I hear footsteps, 

They stop behind me, 

"Jamie?" James said 

For some odd reason I could respond or move, or talk, I'm frozen why am I so frozen is it because I'm afraid of how he'll react, 

I didn't realize it but he was kneeling in front of me, looking at me concerned, 

"Angel face what's wrong talk to me," He said sounding worried, his hand tucking some of my hair behind my ear, 

"James I need to tell you something..." I said softly 

I was hesitating, 

"You can tell me anything you know that," He said 

I nodded, 

I took a deep breath, 

"Before I knew.." I begin, 

My lip trembling 

"Before I knew about what happened, about us and everything, I was doing something terrible for a group of terrible people.." I said 

"What are you saying?" James said 

Tears started to fall down my cheeks, 

"James I was working with HYDRA, but at the time I didn't know, I swear I didn't know," I said crying harder, 

"I didn't know anything, until that day I saw you and Steve I promise," I said as I cried harder, 

James looked at me stunned, Steve looked shock, 

"Why didn't you say anything," Steve said 

"Because I was so afraid you two were going to hate me, I didn't want to be alone again," I said as I cried, 

Then suddenly I was brought into a hug, 

James didn't say anything but just simply hugged me, 

My hands formed into fists bunching up his shirt, as I cried into his neck, my hiccuping and gasping becoming heavy from crying too hard, 

I don't want them to hate me, please don't hate me, I thought as I closed my eyes letting all the tears fall, finally telling them the truth even thought I knew I was risking them hating me,