A Crows Love (Philza x reader) (UNFINISHED)

And to think it all started because of this

I opened up the door to the house. It was quiet inside, thank goodness. That meant my mother wasn't home, and I could stay in my room and cry because of how bad I messed up. I can't change anything, it's too late. He probably never wants to talk to me again. No doubt, he has to hate me. I don't know how he wouldn't. I screamed at him. That was the only time I've ever screamed at him. That was the only fight we had ever gotten into. Sure we negotiated who would pay for the cake, but that's not arguing like what I did. That's not shouting at my best, and only friend, ending up ruining my friendship.

It's all my fault.

I closed the door so we wouldn't have any stray animals or potential mobs walking into the house. I walked to my room and grabbed my blanket from my bed, going to a corner in my room where my window wouldn't be able to see me and curling myself into a blanket cocoon. I messed up so bad. And I will have to live with this, plus my mother being the "amazing" mother she is for the next 4 years. No friends, no one to talk to, no one to lean on, no one to trust. Well maybe no one but Ms.Fair. But if I saw Phil there I would leave immediately.

My grip on the blanket tightened at the thought of his face whenever he would see me next. Would it be a look of hatred? Disgust? Anger? A mix of two or all?

I put my head onto my knees, my forehead meeting the soft material of my blanket at I cried. I wish that I could turn back time. Redo that scenario. Maybe if I had just told him in the beginning? Or maybe when he asked the second time? Anything to avoid the fight.

But, unfortunately, I can't do anything about it. What's in the past is literally the past. And there's nothing anyone can do about it.

Unless Phil decides to talk to me on his own terms, then I'm not going to bother him. In fact, I'll avoid him. Just so he had an easier life, and so I won't have to deal with this heart break all over again.

(Phil's pov!)

Just asking a simple question ended up ending an amazing friendship. Why did I push them so much? I could've just allowed them to have their time and tell me whenever they were ready.

But no, just like they said, I can't have a single thing out of my control or knowledge.

All this time they  just wanted to beat me to impress me?
But why do they need to impress me? They're amazing, sweet, and smart to name a few things. I made them feel like they needed to raise their voice, to yell at me to get their point through. How can I be so dumb? And how do they not realize that I know they like things more calm and docile so I become more calm and docile around them. Not only that, but they just makes the atmosphere of wherever they are so much more calm. And, if I were to ignore those to points, then I'm being calm around them so I can hangout with them, so their mom won't see me as a bad person because if she did, I would never be allowed to hangout with (y/n) again.

They're such an amazing person, gosh I would do anything for them. But I think right now they need some time to themselves. Maybe tomorrow or later today I can apologize. Although, I would need to find them. They ran into the forest, which isn't usually where they normally would go. Well, at least from what I know. And, from what I've been told, the forest is huge. I would have to wait at their house until they come back, but then their mother could see me sitting on the porch and question me about why I'm there, where her child is and so much more.

I wouldn't want (y/n) to get in trouble just because I was being pushy. And if I explained to their mom that we got into a stupid argument, she might deem me a bad influence because of one argument.

This sucks.

I guess for now I'll just play with my other friends. I guess they will never know how much they meant to me. I mean, they were my first and best friend. The only person I had an unbreakable bond...or at least that's what I had thought. But, soon, at least by the end of the week, I things will probably go back to normal and we will still be best friends!