why. || tsukiyama

Joy

Yamaguchi's Perspective

Missing someone who pushes you out of your life is as hard as many things in this world that could be much harder to others. I miss Tsukki even though he doesn't want me to even think about him anymore but I love him...

I wipe the tears running down my face and look at Toru who pulled away from the hug he gave me.

"He told me to leave but didn't exactly tell me.. he yelled pretty loudly at me, all I wanted to happen was for him to come home with me.."

"Yams.. I'm so sorry. Maybe he's not ready yet." Toru looked at me and started tearing up, I could tell he feels so bad for me which he shouldn't, I'll be fine.. I'm strong.

"D-Don't be sorry Toru, I'll be fine anyway.. I'm strong.. maybe he'll come back." I smile and think as positive as possible, Tsukki loves me right? He'll want me?...

I start crying more as Toru starts the car and drives back to his place.

"Thanks again for letting me stay at your place, I feel like I'm intruding your relationship with Iwa." I say honestly. I hope I am not ruining anything in their relationship, they are a very cute couple after all.

"You're not intruding anyone Yams, you're our friend! Most definitely NOT an intruder. Iwa is perfectly fine with it too, you're not ruining anything." Toru stated, I was happy that he said that.

"Thank you Toru." I smile big.

I hope Tsukki does come back and, as a better person.

We arrived at Toru's house and we went inside. Iwa was watching an anime on a website, I didn't quite get a good glimpse at what it is. Looked bloody though.

I ran to my room actually happy. I went on my phone and scrolled through Instagram for a bit.

Buzz.

I got a dm from it looks like...

Tsukki?!

Why is he DMing me even after what happened in the hospital? Of course I opened it, it said

'Yams, I didn't mean to act up like that, I promise. I'm super scared of hurting you again and that's one of the main reasons I even tried to take my life.. I hate seeing you in pain so I lashed out at you and told you to leave because, I know you being with me with just cause you to be in so much pain and, I especially would hate to see that but I do love you Yams. I always will.'

I'm not crying.. you are? But I'm sure that my tears are happy tears.

'Tsukki, I love you too and I do forgive you for your actions. You're becoming a better person now and I will never ever ever ever leave you!! I'm so happy you DMed me. MWAHH!! Much love 💕.'

I wrote that to him so he wasn't left on seen, I guess I could ask if I can go back to the hospital to see him?

I get up and go walking downstairs to Toru and Iwa.

"Toru Toru Toru!!!" I yell with excitement in my voice. He was doing the dishes with headphones in while Iwa was watching an anime called 'High Rise Invasion', very bloody.

"Hm? What is it Yams, why are you so excited for?" Toru looked at me with a very confused look but he soon after smiled seeing me happy.

"Tsukki DMed me apologizing and he said he loves me!!" I jump up and down with excitement movement with my arms as well.

"Well isn't that good news, we can go see him right now if you'd like." Toru offered. Of course I said yes because it's Tsukki, duh. I cant wait!!!

"Okay, one second." Toru finished up the dishes and put his shoes on along with grabbing his keys.

"Let's go now." He smiled and walked out of the house, I followed.

I went in the passengers seat and buckled up with a smile on my face as Toru put on his seatbelt and started driving.

I cant wait, I cant wait to hug him and kiss him when I get there.. he'll be the Tsukki I knew when I first developed feelings for him. I'm so happy.

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Cute chapter, I'm fixing everything to be back to them being happy! Sad Yams and bad Tsukki is not happy at all- well I hope you liked this chapter! MWAH HAVE A LOVELY DAYS LOVES<3

- hayden<3