Won't let go

Chapter 13

Your pov:

It was almost Valentine's Day which meant he's leaving soon. Lately it's been kinda hitting me that he's leaving and I've been not the same.

Tom's pov:

Abby has been weird all day. She wasn't eating and not as happy and smiley as she usually is. I think it's because I'm leaving soon. We were now eating dinner and she still hasn't eaten anything.

Tom: " love?"

She didn't answer.

Tom: " love?"

She just sat there looking down at her lap.

Tom: " Abby?"

You: " what?"

She said angered.

Tom: " are you ok? You've been acting weird all day. And not your normal weird, bubbly personality. But you are not acting weird and bubbly."

You: " so?"

Tom: " so, you clearly have something on your mind that's bothering you."

You: " look I don't want to talk about it."

Tom: " ok."

You: " ok!"

She got up and walked into our room.

Your pov:

It was finally getting to me. I knew he was leaving and that there was nothing I could do about it. But there was this fear inside of me. The fear that I'm not the one. The fear that he'll meet someone new. Fear that he'll forget about me.

He says he won't but I feel he will. Timothee always told me there was nobody else but we all know that, that wasn't true.

Tom: " Abby?"

He knocked on the door. I just sat on the floor crying.

Tom: " baby please. Tell me what wrong."

I could hear his voice crack.

Tom: " please I don't want our last nights to end with us both crying, and me falling asleep on the floor right out here."

You: " please just leave me alone."

Tom: " Abby. You know that's not what we do. We communicate with each other. If you tell me what wrong maybe I can help you. Please? Love."

I stood up and unlocked the door.

You: " look I'm not one for dramatics, and I'm definitely not one to cry."

I sniffled.

You: " but what I'm feeling I've been holding in for so long."

Tom: " please just tell me."

I walked into the room and sat down on our bed. He followed and sat beside me.

You: " when we first actually met, I thought you were cute. Then the night you told me you liked me I liked you to. But the next day you told me you loved me. I didn't."

Tom: " what?"

You: " I said I loved you because I felt like I had to."

Tom: " so what you've just been pretending?"

He said more sad then mad.

You: " over these past few weeks? No. But when you first said if I lied. And I feel awful about it."

Tom: " well I get it. But you love me now right?"

You: " of course I do. And that's the real problem."

Tom: " what?"

You: " any time I've ever loved anyone they've left. And I don't want this to feel like I'm telling you that you can't go and do your job. I understand that you have stuff to do. But what I'm scared about is you thinking you love me and then going to all these different places and realizing that I'm not the one. I'm just a girl that made you see who you are really meant to be with. And I'm not this insecure about anything else. But in my heart I feel like,"

Tom: " breath."

I took a deep breath in and out.

You: " like you don't actually love me. And you are just using me."

Tom: " using you?"

You: " you know for fame and such. I know that you're famous. We are equally famous but in this industry people will do anything to get to the top."

Tom: " hey. I'm not like those other guys who use girls for money or sex or whatever. I'm fully in love with every piece of you. The thought of leaving you tomorrow is terrifying. But I have to. To not see your beautiful smile, or hair, feel you in my arms, hear your cute little laugh, all of it. To not have you with me makes me feel sadness that I can't even explain. But I know we are going to work. Because I do love you. Everything about you. And the amount that I'm going to miss you is bigger then the world. I realize that we've only been dating for two months now but that doesn't mean that we can't stay together. That doesn't mean that our relationship is over. But it means that it's the beginning of something incredible. Something that I can't wait for. So I believe that if we really do love each other and try hard enough that in early March when I get off that plane and see though standing there that the first thing I'm going to do is kiss you and hug you and take every little bit of you in. Because you are the love of my life."

We were now both in tears.

You: " I love you too."

Tom: " I promise that another girl does as much as touch my arm I will immediately back away and tell her not to do that. Unless it's like a cast member or something because we're all just friends and half of the girls are like twice my age."

I laughed.

You: " you'll call me right?"

Tom: " as much as possible."

We both leaned in for a long deep passionate kiss. When we pulled away we rested our foreheads together he left a few more kisses on my lips before moving down to my jaw. Leaving slow wet kisses down to my neck. He pulled me up onto his lap and continued kissing.

Tom: " I'm-(kiss)-Yours-(kiss)-Forever-(kiss)"

You: " and I'm all yours."
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He smiled against my skin. Then he picked me up and dropped me gently on the bed.

You: " tomas!"

I giggled.

Tom: " so I'm Tomas now?"

You: " when you are like this yes."

Tom: " like what darling?"

He asked as he climbed on top of me. I pulled him closer so I could whisper in his ear.

You: " hot."

He pulled away bitting his lip before removing his shirt along with mine.

He kissed in every place possible. And I did I the same for him. Kissing and our hands exploring each other until we were both ready and it got really heated. You know what happens next.