Won't let go

Chapter 25

Tom's POV

That was it. I let her go. Not feeling her in my arms pained me. And it hurt even more knowing she's out there pissed and crying over me.

I was supposed to never hurt her. To lover her unconditionally. And I do. I'll never stop. She is the one that I want to be with forever.

Fuck I ruined that. I let her slip through my fingers. After helping her put herself back together I broke her. She let me in and I took that for granted. I lost the love of my life.

I don't think I've ever cried more. I was on our bed. Lying on her pillow. I know it might sound weird but I was smelling it. It smelled like shampoo and perfume. The sent made me happy yet sad at the same time. Her sent always made my heart melt.

Sometimes when she was in America and I was here in London I would grab some of her clothes in my closet and smell them. It always made me feel better. But now that she is gone. Forever. Oh god I need to stop crying I'm a 21 year old man. Almost 22, I need to calm down. This isn't really the end. Right?

Just then I heard everyone come back from wherever they were.

Jacob: " Tom! Abby!"

Jake: " Tom my love where are you?"

Harry: " Abby?"

Haz: " where the fuck are they?"

Sam: " I don't know if we should check upstairs."

He said implying that we were having sex. I whipped my face and walked into the bathroom. I turned on the water and splashed it on my face. Haz then walked in.

Haz: " Tom are you ok?"

Tom: " no. Who's here?"

Haz: " Jake, Jacob, Harry and Sam."

Tom: " ok. As long as fucking Zendaya isn't here."

Haz: " what do you all of a sudden have towards Z? And where's Abby?"

I then started crying again.

Haz: " mate what happened?"

He said rubbing my back.

Tom: " I got a text from my lawyer talking about mine and Zendaya's divorce because it's taken a whole freaking year to go through so all we have to do is sign them and we are good. But she saw it and got really mad that I didn't tell her. And she's right. It was a dick move. I didn't even tell her we dated. That's why she was really mad. She told me that if I had told her before we started dating then she would have helped me. I ruined it all. She was the love of my life."

I put my face in my hands. I miss her. She's been gone for, 30 minutes? Fuck. I've lived for 30 minutes without her. How? This makes no sense. My god I miss her. I'm so pathetic.

Harry: " you guys have been up here for like ten minutes. Tom are you ok?"

Tom: " I broke her."

God why can't I stop crying?

Tom: " she loved me, I loved her, both of us would do anything for each other. And I broke her into so many tiny pieces that she's gone. And I don't get a second chance."

I whipped under my nose. Ew.

Sam: " oh my god Tom stop being so dramatic, let me guess you lost an AirPod?"

He mocked.

Harry: " Abby broke up with him."

Sam: " what? Oh my god Tom I'm so sorry."