I Need U -Min Yoon-gi 민윤기

Chapter 15: The Last 마지막

On the first visit to the psychiatric ward

My parents came up with me

We listened to the consultation together

My parents said they don't truly understand me

I don't understand myself well either

Then who would understand?

Friends? Or you? Nobody knows me well

(The Last is by Agust D and on his first mixtape) 

(Hello, I was going to give a warning before the chapter begins, there is talk of mental health and times of depression and other problems that may be triggering for some, The youtube video is the Music Box Version of Film out and is what I listen to while writing this chapter, the sweetness sound and innocent sound I hope helps with the vibes of this chapter) 

Lyn's POV:

It had been a week since ARMY found out about me and Yoongi. A week since the world all got to see Mini. It was currently 2 am as I stood in her nursery, I just got her back to sleep after eating. I watched her sleeping so peacefully. It has been almost 10 months since I had her. I did have the baby blues but they are supposed to be gone, still, I feel as though I am not supposed to be here. I ruined everyone's lives around me. I created issues, Yoongi is just pretending they are not there. I know he has to see how I have ruined everything for him by getting pregnant. It is all my fault. A tear slowly started to fall down my cheek, I looked out the window at the night sky. This room is towards the top. The window I could probably easily get out of and-. I can't do that, Mini still needs me, though Yoongi could find a Nanny and just replace me.

"Lyn why are you still up, she is asleep come back to bed" I heard a groggy deep voice say and I turned to see, Yoongi. He had me dye his hair blonde and I am still getting used to seeing his handsome self. Why does he care so much about me, He has billions of girls throwing themselves at him.

"I was just watching her sleep, I'll be right there," I tell him, wiping my face before turning to face him. He nods and walks over grabbing my hand.

"I want snuggles though now, I'm missing you in there," He tells me pouting, I look down at his hand holding mine. I nodded and allowed him to pull me back to the bedroom.

We laid down back in bed and he pulled me close to him holding on to me. I scratched his head as he started to doze off to sleep. I looked at the ceiling and was not able to sleep. Why can't I just be happy, I have a boyfriend who for some reason loves me, I have a beautiful and healthy baby girl. I have 6 amazing friends, An incredible nice home. I am so undeserving of all of this, This has all come at the cost of Yoongi never having his life back as it was. He could have a traditional Korean girlfriend, but now he is stuck with me, an American that will never be able to understand traditions that are to be kept. I make mistakes all the time though I have been here a few years now.