Choas
All I hear is static
Static fills my ears
Fills my mind
I hear nothing but I hear everything
Oxymorons fill my ears
Silent noise
It doesn't seem silent
I hear screams in the static
Ear piercing screams inside my head
Covering my ears makes it louder
The static in my mind rebels
Every time I try to ignore it, it gets louder
Like the little sister begging for attention
Nagging in my ears
Psssssshhhhhtttt
The monotone noise that somehow changes pitch
It changes ever so slightly
Did the noise change?
Who the hell knows.
Its like staring at broken TV
"White noise"
Did the picture change?
Do the black and white blobs ever change?
Who the hell knows
People swear I'm not crazy
But they don't hear the static
With hands that punch me
With a voice that whispers just above the white noise
"You're nothing"
"No one cares"
"You're pathetic"
"Go away"
It was all a whisper
Just a figment of my imagination
But the words were just above the static
They appear when I close my eyes.
Big Blocky Letters
"YOU'RE NOTHING"
Floating just above the broken screen
Everything is broken
My broken eyes see into my broken soul
Just watching the broken screen wit static showing the shattered words of my shattered mind.
Until it yelled.
"DIE ALREADY"
I gave in
But I failed
Now the static is gone
Stupid little pills
Acting like a radar
Blocking out the static
But my mind is silent
No static
No TV
No thoughts
And still no happiness
But there was a small nagging
It wanted rebellion
To be dangerous
I listened
It wanted the static back
I started to miss it
I threw them away
The static crawled back weakly
I welcomed it with open arms
Cradling it
Nursing it
The static is as loud as ever
Being the bully I forgot it was.
But I still received it all
Blow after blow
Ow I cry weakly
Oww
I tried to flee
I think it worked
The static is gone
But I'm not lonely this time
Six months later and its back
I keep pushing it away
But I can't punch static
It screams and howls
Make it stop
It keeps coming back
It saps my energy
I can't keep pushing it away
I can't fight static
Its a battle that I may lose
It seems pointless
How could I possibly fight a noise
A droning monotone noise
I'm surrounded on all four sides
By a noise
My mind is static now.
YOU ARE READING
crystal clear insanity
RandomPoems that i write in my spare time. a way to fight the insanity in my head read if you wish. thanks.