Underside of the Underworld

Ch10. That feeling again

Lucas

The fucker knew we were gonna come for him so he fled. I've searched all of Rome and sent people all over Italy.

I know he hasn't left Italy but he is really good at hiding. After Veronica told me that it was one of the guys that attacked her I went straight to Carlos.

He told me to stay back and keep an eye on Veronica but I didn't listen and I went out anyway.

It was just something in me that told me that I need to find this guy and make him suffer the way he made Veronica.

Right now it's two in the morning and I'm sitting in Veronica's medical room. She's fast asleep but I dont get how.

She's laying on her back with one arm laying on top of the metal bar and the other under her back. Both legs are spread apart and hanging off the bed. I'd wake up with back problems if I was her.

But she's comfortable. I feel bad honestly, I don't think she's truly over her mom's death like she's putting out.

I can just tell that by looking at her that she is still breaking inside. Cole and D, it only took them a day or two but Veronica. She locked herself in her room for days then came out like nothing happened. Pure sign she's not okay.

I don't know if it was just a moment she had and decided to come out or what but she just came out and started joking and insulting everything and everyone.

I can tell everyone is worried. I mean if I was her father I would too. One day your long lost daughter randomly shows up at your house then proceeds to tell you that her mother died then goes through a couple days of not seeing anyone and finally coming out and saying everything is fine.

I know it's not.

I personally lost a lot. Mother died at 7, taken away from my father at 11, aunt and uncle that took me in randomly killed when I was 15, being able to go back to my father then started to work with Carlos as my father needed me to for the alliance and that brings me to now 19 and working for Carlos for about 3 or 4 years.

I see my father every once and a while but not much. In reality Carlos is more of a father than anything. My dad started drinking and only focusing on his Mafia after mom died.

He never paid attention and that's why he gave me over to Carlos so easily. I got close with Cole and Damien when I started and when I was at school I met Caleb who was also working for Carlos.

I never understood why at such a young age but I never asked. Since I got closer with Cole and D I started staying here at the main house. Then one day Carlos started considering me his son and let me live here.

Same with Caleb.

Well now that I thought about that I think it's time for sleep. I'm exhausted and have a mission after school.

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Veronica

I wake up yet again in the same white room and bed. At least I get to leave this today. But I'm not sure if I really want to.

That same feeling is back again telling me to stay in bed and cry. I don't know if it's because of mom or the guy or both. I'm scared that he'll do something. I don't know what but something.

I hope not that would be bad because one we are at a school and second that could start a physical war.

Not that many fights and mini wars haven't started but I meant the whole ass Mafia against Mafia.

Groaning, I stand up. My heart feeling heavy i walk out of the room and I'm not in the mood to play Dora the fucking explorer so I called Cole.

"Hey Roni."

"I'm too tired to do anything so can you guide me through the house from the medical room please."

I say trying not to sound so tired, tired of everything at the moment.

"Uh, yea ok so if you turn left and walk up the stairs then take two lefts you'll be in the living room." He says.

"Ok thanks Cole bye."

"Bye."

I hung up the phone and followed directions and find myself in deed in the living room. Sighing I walk up to my room. "Hi Veronica." Jayden says as she passes me.

I smile at her not feeling like talking to anyone. It felt rude because she is finally talking to me.

I walk into my room and change into an oversized hoodie and baggy sweatpants. Putting my hair into a ponytail I pull my hood over my head and walk out after putting some socks on.

As i walk into the dining room I see everyone has their eyes on me. I just walk past and into the kitchen. After a few minutes of looking around I find nothing I want.

I'm just not hungry. I turn around and I am greeted with Damien standing there. He has a look asking what's wrong.

That's when I finally snapped.

"I-i miss mom." I say as my knees stop working and I fall. Damien runs over and holds me up and I cry against his chest. He hugs me as I cry into his chest.

I've been holding all these emotions back and they just decided to come out now.

Wow Veronica you're really ruining your bad bitch look right now.

"Its ok." Damien whispers, rubbing my back. "N-no it's not if I didn't make mom take me to the shop this wouldn't have happened." I cry.

"That was your idea but she agreed. She knew it was dangerous but she did it. So don't think it was only you." He says and I just keep quiet as I try to calm down.

Damien is really the best right now. He is here for me at my lowest and I'm glad. I don't know what I would have done if no one was here right now. I take a moment and just breathe.

I calm down and look up to him. "Thanks D I owe you one." I say as I wipe my face. "Nonsense. I'm always here for you if you need someone you can always call." He says, giving me a smile.

I smile and nod as we both walk out into the dining room.

...

These first few classes have been absolutely hell. Like I said that stupid fucking feeling is still there and it only causes me to fall into my own world and stare off into space.

Lucas had to keep nudging me back into reality. I can tell I was annoying him so I just moved over to Caleb.

Now it's lunch and I'm sitting down with the boys and Jayden. I haven't seen the guy today so that's good.

I'm still not hungry and I'm just sitting there till I feel a tap on my shoulder. I instantly tense up.

Shit, crap, fuck, its him, he's going to kill me, help, I dont wa- "Veronica." Wait, that's not him?

I slowly turn around and see Jaxson standing behind me and I relax my shoulders. "Can I um talk to you?" He asks.

"Sure." I say getting up. He leads me into an empty hallway. Great if I die I die. But please bury me with a bunch of apple juice.

Don't ask.

"I just wanted to ask how you were feeling, '' he says after we come to a stop. "Oh um yeah I'm better, just a little jumpy that's all." I try to reassure him. "Oh ok well that's all see you later?"

"Yea."

I walk back and sit down with them again. "What was that about?" Caleb says, wiggling his eyebrows at me. I roll my eyes. "Nothing, he was just asking me how I was feeling."

"Ugh, not interesting at all." He whines and I smile at him.

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I now update every other day.

-M

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4/27/2022

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