Underside of the Underworld

Ch11. Working for Mafia

Veronica

I have taken time for myself. When I say that I mean eat ice cream and cry watching movies. On a real note I've taken time to calm down and get over this feeling and I can feel that it is lifting. Yea my mothers death will always be with me but I think it's now going to the back of my head and I'm not thinking anything of it as much. It's Thursday and I've just been in a depression bubble all week, But now I think it's popped and just the residue is left.

The rest of the family has been trying to get me to do things with them but I turn them down each time. I feel bad but I'm not up for anything because of me trying to get better. Lately I've been thinking about me and the mafia.

As of right now I'm a bench warmer. Off to the side not helping, staying out to not get hurt. Well I'm not one to stay on the side and just wait to get kidnaped or wait till it's over. That brings me to now.

Rethinking everything as I'm standing in front of my dad's office. I want to help. Get in on the action. And no not because I think it's cool and shit. No, I know how dangerous it is and how I'll be killed on the spot if I'm found.

I'm just tired of not helping.

Bitch up Veronica.

I give in and knock on the door. " Aperto". I walk in and he greets me with a smile. I take a seat. I know exactly how this is going to go so let's just hope I'm wrong.

"What can I do for you Roni?" He says leaning back in his chair. "Ok so I know what you're going to think when I tell you this but please just hear me out." I say to him, I watch as his face turns to fear.

"You aren't leaving right?" He says, worried. "What? No I was going to ask something else." He lets out a sigh and tells me to continue. " As you know the other Mafia is after my head and you guys have just been keeping me hidden. I know you're trying to protect me and I'm extremely grateful for that but I'm tired of sitting on the sideline. So I want to ask you to let me in on this. Help you guys end this so you guys and me can be safe again. I know that we won't always be safe due to us being in the mafia but at least end this war. Be the family i've been dreaming about since I was little."

I finish and watch as he takes all this in. "Before you give me an answer, no this is not a faze I'm having because I haven't been myself. I actually have been thinking about this for a long time."

He just stares at me with a blank look. " Caro, I want to say no and tell you how this isn't what you want but we could use the help. Help as in the inner circle. The rest of the Mafia is fine but in the inner circle we only have Lucas as an assassin and we need more. This isn't a sure yes because I need time to think and you need to think. So I'll think about the answer and you think about if this is really what you want. If so your position would be assassin. "

Now it's my turn to stare at him with a blank look. He just told me that I could get in if he said yes. I was thinking that he would just say no and then that would be the start of an argument. " Veronica?"

"Oh- um yea I will think about it." "Ok you may leave now." I nod and get up and walk back to the living room. I sit on the couch and stare at the floor.

Assassin. I mean I want to do it but I know that there is a part of me that might get upset about killing people. On the other hand it's not the first time and I'd be killing bad people.

I don't know how I heard it but I heard once that your first kill and reaction will determine everything on what next. Either you react well and you're fine. Or you react fine but slowly you start to crumble on the inside knowing that you killed someone then your body's dark side takes control and you're not the same.

I get pulled out of my thoughts by a throat being cleared. I look up to see Lucas sitting there. " Have you been there this whole time?" I ask him.

"Yup." How the hell didn't I notice him. "But I do want to know what's going through your head Hendrix because your kind of scary when you sit down and stare wide eyed at the floor without saying anything."

Great, I probably looked weird. "Well long story short I might be joining the work part of the mafia." I say breaking eye contact and looking down in my lap. " What why?" He now shifts in his seat and rests his elbows on his knees and puts his hands under his chin.

" I'm done with being the one who doesn't do anything. All of you guys are out here figuring out stuff to keep me safe and yourself while I just sit there. So I asked Carlos if I could join and he said he would think about it."

"What part would you be doing?" " Assassin." As soon as I say that his eyes shoot up to mine. " Are you crazy? You know that job isn't as easy as you think you have to be able to kill then get out unnoticed. Some of the time there are people around, witnesses and some are smart and will look around for who did it and if you caught your dead. Six. Feet. Under. Not to mention your first job. You have to be the right person because if you can't pull the trigger you'll be put right back where you were on the side."

Wow now this is the reaction I was expecting from my dad. Not Lucas for gosh sakes. "Yes I know that's why he gave me time to think and I know, I know what it'll be like. I'm not a little girl. I can handle this now like I said I need to think about it but don't be surprised when I start working because I'm not one to stay away from trouble."

As I say that I make my way back to my room. Honestly I have no idea what that was about. Maybe it's the fact that i'll be doing the same job as him? I don't know. Maybe he was just trying to warn me. That wasn't really a fight really either.

It was me just telling him that I'm probably going to the job because I don't want to be helpless.

I'm not a little girl.

Lucas

Assassin. I just hope she knows what it'll do to her if it takes a turn for the worse. I'm surprised that Carlos even thought about letting her. It puts her in more danger than she is in now.

That's why I'm making my way to his office right now. I knock on the door and he lets me know I can come in. "Letting her in? You know that's gonna put her in more danger. Right?"

I say as soon as I sit down. "I'm happy you want to keep her safe and all and so do I but we can't really tell her what to do. She's been through just as much training as you and she wants to help out. She doesn't want to stay out even though I want her to. She will find a way to help so I'm not going to turn her down but if one thing goes wrong then I'll take her right back out."

Keep her safe. Ha. I could care less. I just help keep her safe because I know what it'll do to the others if she dies. Also because I work for him duh.

" Since you already know about this I'm guessing she told you what she would be doing?" " "Yeah" "Well she knows what to do you'll just have to be there to help her. Maybe making sure it's clear or when not to go. It will only be for I don't know the first three times till she gets the hang of it."

What the fuck. I didn't want her doing the same job as me and now I have to train her. Just. Fucking. Great. "Capire?"

"Yes boss." I get up and leave the room and head to my room to think this all through.

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Veronica wanting to get in on the action. I see her.

-M

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4/27/2022

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