imagines - mattiapolibio<3.🐸

hurt

BIG TW FOR THIS CHAPTER.

  trying to commit kinda ig?
descriptions of self harm

(skip if u don't like any of that pls)

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i want to die

   i was sobbing on the bathroom floor as my arms bled out with fresh cuts all over them wishing he was beside me right now

i took pills a little ago..but they haven't kicked in..

i wiped my tears choking on my tears hearing my phone go off next to me seeing Gianluca calling me making me sniffled quietly picking it  up

y/n: hey b-bubba whats up

gian: mattia was worried that you weren't answering his text and calls..

i heard slight sniffs in the back and i sighed

y/n: um..tell him im okay..j-just busy...

i said feeling lightheaded as the world began spinning and gians voice sound like he was miles away screaming for me as i felt to the ground hearing gian calling my name over and over along with mattias voice mixed with it

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then my world went back...

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i woke up to bright light above me as i looked around seeing myself in a hospital room as i turned my head to the chairs seeing gian..mattias parents and moved my hams slightly feeling a body making me see mattia as he slowly looked up at me tiredly as tears filled his eyes as he smiled kissing my lips softly making me kiss him back softly

mattia: i love u so much..im sorry i wasn't there to help you baby..i should've got there earlier..

y/n: its not your fault okay...i-i shouldn't have done it in the first place...i knew i would've hurt you an-

mattia: baby no...its not..you were hurting with trauma...i understand princesa...don't worry about it

he said softly pecking my lips as i hummed and hw cuddles onto me as i hugged his dad,mom and Gian

we all talked and they were making me happy enough to feel okay and forget about what happen

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(okie this is where shes happy/recover)
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its been couple of months since i tried to commit

i've been better..mattias onto me about drinking my pills when im supposed to

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i was laying in bed with him wearing shorts and a tank top just waking up from a nap with him and his head was against my chest as his thumb drew over my scars and i seen his eyes slightly water as he laid a kiss on them softly making me eyes fill with tears knowing what i did hurt him ans i know those making him think about the situation

y/n: i-im sorry f-for what i did b-baby...i-im sorry

i said covering my face embarrassed as i sobbed into my hands remembering how long it took him to finally get over the fact it happen to where it doesn't cross his mind as much

i felt mattias hands move my hands away as he wipest my tears with his thumbs softlt kissing my lips

mattia: stop it..

mattia: please ma..you don't need to be sorry

he whispered softly kissing my lips wiping my tears as he made me breath in ams breath out to calm down and he kissed me softly and i hummed as we pulled away and i wiped my nose sniffling looking at my lap

he grabbed my waist lifting me to his lap and he grabbed my face softly and kissed all over my neck and arms and rubbed my thighs softly and kissed the cuts and burns on my thighs as i softly smiled wiping my tears giggling

y/n: i love you...

mattia: i love you more princess

i smiled softly as he hugged my waist putting his head against my chest snuggling into my breast and i softly ran my fingers threw his hair and i felt him kissing on my breast making me giggle as i pushed him away

y/n: u weirdo!

i said giggling as a smile appeared on his face while chuckling

mattia: WELL THEIR MINE MISSY

he said making me giggled as he tried grabbing my waist again but i got up quickly running away and i heard him run after me

i giggled as i felt him grab my waist pulling me back to him and carried me back to the room throwing me in the bed playfully and tickled me making me laugh as they slowly turned into whimpers as i teared up making him stop quickly hugging me

mattia: im sorry baby i forgot you just got them out..

he held me in his arms running his fingers threw my hair and i sniffled softly as i slowly fell asleep in his arms as he rubbed my stomach softly

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this is trash but gn.

:)

dumbass hoe..🗣^