Mattia was playing the x-box all day today with ale and kairi and only getting up to get snacks since he was in the living room and I was upstairs
I was on my period and my stomach hurt bad so I grabbed my stuff animal and blanket and laid on the couch curled up since my stomach hurt
I was wearing shorts and a hoodie and fuzzy socks
I sat up and looked at my thighs
I had so called thunder thighs and a ightybitty waist a little chubby stomach
I've always been insecure about my body I always hated the way I looked in tight things which is why I always wear baggy mom Jean's and hoodies and never wear crop tops
I only wore shorts around mattia and my mom and dad and siblings never wore them out
I then wrapped my arms around my stomach
I always compared myself to mattia ex's so as cynthia,lena,jenna
They all so pretty and I'm nothing compared to them....
A tear slipped from my eye and I wiped it but many more followed and I sniffled and wiped them but more followed and started crying worse and got under the blanket and dug my head into my stuffed animal since I was right behind mattia and I didn't want to hear me
I keep sniffling as tears fell when someone lifted the blanket
Mattia:you okay baby??
He said as he softened and laid behind me big spooning me and wrapped his arms around me getting under the blanket
Hailey:I'm fine I'm just-just on my period....
I said as I wiped my tears and sitting up
Mattia:just lay down we can cuddle
I laid down and he burned me closer to him and his hand went up the bottom of my hoodie and I tensed up and pushed his hands out
Mattia:why's you do that I'm trying to massage your stomach so you feel better?
Hailey:wydm?
Mattia:you pushed my hand outh
your hoodie
Hailey:oh...sorry want ment to happen
He tried again and i tenced up as soon as I felt his hand on my stomach and pushed his hands out
Mattia:are you okay?
Hailey:yeah...I'm fine..
Mattia:then why do you keep pushing my hands out?
