I Need You to Love Me

A Message (7)

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Next morning:

*Ring Ring*

God why am I always being woken by my phone.... I sit up a bit and glance at Dan thankfully still asleep... and spooning me, I grab my phone expecting it to be Peej or Chris but across the receiver a lower voice speaks.
I try to say "Hel-"
"Philip you're such a disappointment, you scum. I really had high hopes for your career in Youtube but now that I see your Friend has turned you into a little fag like him. I can't promote you anymore. I have to shut you down. Good Day."

The line goes dead. and I'm shaking.
I hear Dan yawn and I try to make my shaking not noticeable anymore.
"Philly? Why are you shaking? Are you okay?"

"Ye-yea-Yeah. I'm okay now."
"Okay Phil. Thank you for letting me sleep in here it kept me calm. now I'm gonna go make a video because I haven't made one in a while."

"Okay talk to you later." I said shutting the door behind him and locking it. I can't have him come in if I may be thinking of who this random person who threatened me across the phone is. An hour later and I find myself looking at my scars.

A few years back before I met Dan I really had a hard time with people and I was pretty depressed and yes I did self harm.

But then Dan came into my life I started healing and so did he. I just looked at them for hours sitting here thinking not getting up to do anything. I never want to go back. But what if this mystery person is really- No Phil I can't think that I will never go back never.

I had not looked at my phone since morning and when I finally took a second I glanced over to It there was my call list and a number at the top. That must've been the number the mystery man called from. After looking at the number for a few minutes before I gain the courage and ring him up. I wait and wait then I hear the phone pick up and I'm about to say something intimidating but then a high pitched voice speaks "Hi! I'm so glad you decided to order from Kerry's pizza! Would you like to try one of our specials today, they include Facemelt Wings, Kerry's Kale pizza, and our famous everything deep pizza!?"
In shock I say "Um I'm sorry I must've had the wrong number... But quick question, has there been anyone at this phone other than you?"
"Well sir no one other than my employees. I'm sorry."
"Oh okay thank you anyway"
Then I hung up.

I hang my head then rest it in my hands. I feel like crying but I know Dan will sense something's wrong in minutes because he can hear through the walls. I am just so confused... I try to make myself at least a bit presentable and unlock and open my door. Im surprised by a sleeping Dan across the hall laying on the floor across from my door.

I just look at him until I see his phone light up in his pocket a bunch of notifications on the front the first one dated 2 hours ago. He hasn't checked his phone for that long? He was sat here this long? Why? I am about to try to pick him up and bring him to his room before I realize he's about the same size as me and he's tad taller so I would end up waking him and then dropping him.
So I walk back into my room and grab a pillow and a blanket and walk back into the hall. I gently raise dans head and place the flappy bird pillow underneath and set his head down then I just quickly place a big blanket over him. I bend down near his sleeping face and kiss him on the top of his head and whisper a faint, "Thank you" and see him stir in his sleep and I walk back into my room and quietly shut my door and flop onto my bed.
Just looking at my ceiling and thinking. Thinking of the random man, but mostly thinking about Dan.

"I like Dan Howell."