I Need You to Love Me

Silence (11)

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The next morning a woke with a headache... I was thinking way too much, seeing that I had a freaking headache early.

I peeked my head out of my room to check for and signs of dan at all and there was nothing other than the cereal I had bought him was gone and there was a drawer open in the kitchen showing dan must've grabbed them and went back into his room to not run into me.

I'm not surprised if he's scared and or embarrassed but I wish he would talk to me.

All I wanted to do is rush into his room and tell him that I love him and I hope he loves me back or at least likes me.

But then he may have just been caught up in the moment and accidentally kissed me so I don't want to do anything.

I understand Dan wants his space so I use the opportunity to take some Phil time.

After about an hour of "Phil time" I got really lonely and bored without Dan, so I rang up Peej to ask if Chris and him were up to go to town then see a movie or something. They both agreed and we met at Nando's to have lunch seeing it was around 2.

"Hey Phil?" Peej asked me when a silence fell.

"Yeah?"

"You never told us why Dan didn't join us." Chris stated, knowing what Peej was going to ask.

"Well some stuff went on last night and Dan has been under the radar since and I got really bored without him so I called you two dorks." I said as I stared down at the table.

"Stuff? Care to enlighten us? Or no?"
Peej asked with slight hesitation.

I quickly gave the two young men the short version of the story and it ended up with both of there mouths hanging open before Chris exclaims "We didn't know how long it was going to take!!!"

And I just stared at him with a blank expression until I uttered a slight "wha?"

They looked at me like I had just grown two extra heads before they explained that ever since they figured there feelings out they knew that Dan and I are supposed to be together. I shook my head at them because Phan is basically there OTP.

"Sadly there is a 75% chance nothing will happen because I'm pretty sure he was just caught up in the moment and doesn't like me back" I stated.

"One, you never said you liked him but now we know," Peej said wagging his brows. "Two, I personally think he's had a thing for you since 2009!"

"Whatever Peej."  I told him, shaking my head.

We then changed the subject and ended up going to this huge arcade not too far away and I won a huge stuffed lion with all of my tickets. I ended up getting home around 8.

Tired from hanging out with Kickthestickz all day, I rushed to my room not bothering to check for Dan knowing he wouldn't talk to me yet.

Since I hadn't been on my phone all day I flopped down on my bed and checked my notifications seeing I had a few messages from various YouTube friends but this I reached the bottom of my notifications and saw I have 2 missed calls from an unknown number and one voice message. I unlock my phone and check my voice message

*You have one voice message.*

"Phil,
Ray of sunshine,
Sweetheart of YouTube,
Everyone loves you,
Why be scum like your
Bestfriend?"

The moment I heard him say my name I knew it was my stalker and that alone sent shivers down my spine. I was scared he was trying to talk me out of being "Scum" like Dan but Dan is not scum! He's the sweetest kindest person I've ever known and that man has no right to say that about him!!!

I got very emotional in that hour thinking about why is this person targeting me? and i thought I was doing things right! and There's nothing wrong with loving Dan nothing!!!

I decided to take a shower and get things out of my brain and just stand in the warmth that is the shower seeing I don't have a best friend at the moment to hug me and tell me everything's okay and keep me warm.

I kept looking over at the razor that sat on the tiny shower rack a foot away from me wondering what would've happened if I just ended it years ago and that's how I ended up crying for 7 minutes in the shower.

I soon got out of the shower and slipped into clean clothes. And brushed my teeth. I felt better but I could tell my eyes were quite puffy after crying.

And as I walked out of the bathroom to my room I see Dan staring right at me in the lounge. I go to say something but he cuts me off by opening his arms and saying quietly,

"Phil I'm not ready to talk, so don't speak. Just come here."

I quickly moved to him and was soon wrapped in his arms with him stroking the back of my wet hair. And soon after I fell asleep.

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