Trouble in Paradise (BrightWin Fanfic)

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WIN'S POV

There's a certain factor that makes me comfortable at El Nido. Just looking out my window already calms my mind. I was still empty but I could feel it getting lighter. It felt like an escape.

I wanted to spend the day differently from what we usually did. I went out of the resort and found some local kids. I saw them carrying pieces of bamboo as if they were playing but I noticed they exchanged it for money.

They were working at a young age. I sat under the tree from a far distance. I saw them run towards their mother and gave her the money they earned.

"Win..." I looked around when somebody called me.

"Grandma" I said and gave her a small smile.

"I thought you would go and do some water activities... What brought you here watching the locals?" She asked.

"Looking for another perspective. They seem to have better lives than us with the littlest things they got." I said and looked back at the family.

"Sometimes having everything is a curse and having nothing is the biggest blessing you'll ever get." She said.

We stayed there until she said she's going because she's gonna try to contact Namtaan. I stayed there and watched more of what the locals do. They all seem to have the happy life. A very simple one that doesn't give you so much pain, emptiness and disappointment.

I spent hours there watched the kids play with rocks and just the things around them. It took my mind off things for a while. For once, I wasn't thinking about everything I left behind. I wasn't trying to numb the pain, to distract myself from the emptiness.

When it was getting hot, I decided to stand up and head back to the shore. I asked permission from Bright's grandmom to go to Bright's island. I wanted to be alone. I want to feel all of it.

When I got to Bright's island, I went to the cliff and just laid there. The thoughts ran endlessly through my mind. I was empty inside, I was numb. I just stared at the sky and let the thoughts run through until I realized the sun was already setting. I forgot to eat again, it's funny when we're in so much pain that we forgot all he smallest mundane things we have to do.

I didn't even cry anymore, everything was just too much that it left me blankly staring at the sunset in front of me.

"Things weren't supposed to be this way," I said as anger sank in me.

I was sad about all of it but now I am mad, things aren't supposed to be this hard. We're supposed to be living the lives we wanted. Dealing with the crap we put ourselves into not what life puts us through.

I closed my eyes in anger and decided to go down. I walked by the shore at first until I decided to go for a swim.

"Bright has got to be kidding me. He has to live. This isn't fun alone." I whispered to myself as I swam around for a while.

When the skies were dark, I went back to the shore. There is barely light from the moon and the only source of light I have is from the boat. I sighed. Maybe I should get going now...