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Incertitude

incertitude // Noun

a state of uncertainty or hesitation.

Changbin was stressed out, to the point he was constantly fidgeting with his phone while he waited for Chan and Felix to finish whatever they were working on at the hotel. He just to make sure his cousin, Jisung was alright after he called from having an anxiety attack. His mind wasn't anywhere in the right mindset. To be honest, it scared the shit out of him. The last time he had an attack he took his usual pills, more than he normally would have and thankfully It wasn't nearly enough to be considered overdosed, but it was enough to be lying on the floor and not in his bed. Plus, Changbin wasn't there to make sure he had no sharp objects in his possession.

"Chan, I need to make a phone call," Changbin yelled loudly from the main room, getting off the couch and darting for the exit.

"Bin he probably is fine now. Minho is more than capable of taking care of him." Chan tried reasoning making his way into the main room with Felix trailing behind him, yet Changbin still felt uneasy and stood there giving him a dumb look. Minho phoned shortly after maybe an hour after getting off the phone with Jisung, he called panicked. His voice was shaken. It had been two days. He was ready to pack up and head home to ensure his cousin was alright, but he couldn't. Felix and Chan persuaded him to stay.

"I'm still going to call... you know- to check-up." Changbin continued leaving before walking away into a separate room. It rang once, rang twice and by the third ring, someone picked up.

"Jisung-ah?"

"No, its Lee Know.
He's still sleeping..."

"Ahh, okay. Rest is good. You've been up this entire time, haven't you?"

"It's the least I could do. It's my fault he forced himself to get sick, it was my fault his anxiety skyrocketed. I'm sorry you are worried about him..." Minho whispered over the line.

"But- Lee Know-" Changbin knew he felt bad, but he didn't have to lose sleep over this.

"Don't tell me it's not. If I hadn't had my episode where all I could see was pain, he wouldn't have been choked or laying in bed sick to his stomach."

"Wait.... What! Choked?"

Sudden anger slipped through he hadn't even realized he was gripping the phone hard as his voice continuously went dark. He gritted his teeth together. How dare he lay his hands on Jisung. Just as his anger began boiling, Felix followed into the hall, he missed seeing the redhead.

"You did what? Care to repeat?" Changbin growled, leaning against the wall his head unintentionally, beating against it.

"It wasn't on purpose Changbin. He grabbed me wrong, it was aggressive, well kind of but my mind triggered it and saw it as a threat. It was maybe 10 seconds till I snapped out of it... I'm sorry... Sorry!"

The phone had gone silent as Changbin clenched his fist, watching as Felix came into the corridor of the lobby with worry all over his face.

"If you hurt him Minho, So HELP ME!" Changbin threatened into the phone, his anger was now spilling into his actions, forcing himself away from the wall, accidentally shoving Felix to the side.

The phone line went dead after Minho said sorry again. Changbin sighed heavily. He couldn't believe he knowingly choked Jisung. All the anger he felt surged through him, groaning in frustration. His eyes targeted the younger redhead.

"Changbin-Hyung? What happened?" Felix lowered his voice, Changbin's eyes glared boring holes into the young, freckled male and it wasn't that he meant to make him flinch, but he did, and it hurt his heart. The way Felix stepped back; his eyes cast downwards at the floor, which only seemed to fuel Changbin's anger more.