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Irresolute

Irresolute

adjective:
showing or feeling hesitancy; uncertain.

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Minho woke up with a cold sweat. It was sticking to his white V-neck shirt. tired eyes that tried adjusting to the semi-illuminated room. The metal bars on the window blocked only so much sun, but it peaked it way through enough to blind Minho in his bottom bunk bed. He rubbed his face as he sat up fast, cracking his head off the bar that rested above his bunk. The metal clinking startled the room mates. Minho let a heavy groan out as he pressed a hand against his head rolling over towards the wall. His bunk mate, Seungmin mumbled a few quiet words before he peered over the top of his bunk down at him with sleepy eyes that had a tinge of annoyance.

"Again..." Seungmin, mumbled rubbing his eyes.

"Sorry Seung..." Minho rubbed his forehead, that throbbed harshly sending the blood flow heavily through his body.

"This is the third time this week-" Seungmin moaned out rolling over to try and adjust himself, a strange fellow who didn't know how Minho and Felix ended up at the orphanage 3 years ago. Felix was closer to him than he was but soon this will change. It will be the end of their road. Minho had a plan. A plan so Felix and him could live freely. The dream he kept having only signified he lived in a cruel environment. The harsh orphanage life Minho hated. It was just as bad as his home life he used to live.

Stretching and pulling his sleepy self out of bed he went to Felix's bunk to make sure he was okay as well. They roomed in single-sized bed bunks of two so, four beds all together resided in a ten by sixteen room. When they first came to the orphanage, they remained in a single two bunk by their selves because they couldn't socialize with the other boys well enough. The PTSD that resided in Minho and his protective state wouldn't let anyone close to him or his brother. That was until they met Seungmin. He was quite reserved and quiet. Which didn't seem to bother Felix or himself. Minho simply didn't want to cause issues for anyone else.

They were forced into a 4 bedroom area when Seungmin seemed to connect with them better than the other boys at the orphanage.

Minho sat of the edge of Felix's bed brushing his hair out of his face. His golden like freckles, being revealed with every push of strand that would move. Judging by his perfect timing of waking up with was six-fiftyfive am, his nightmares always woke him up five minutes before the seven am alarm that would go off.

Strict rules where they couldn't leave their quarters before seven, from seven until nine was showers and breakfast. You could choose to sleep during this time too but Minho himself preferred to shower over food and Felix - occasionally - always got up to shower first seeing as everyone else wanted food in their stomach.

When they first got here, there years ago it was hard to adjust to their system. Sometimes neither of them got breakfast because it would be gone by the time they got out of the showers and down to the kitchen hall. Luckily since Seungmin showed up little over a two years ago, he would occasionally grab some fruit for Felix or a coffee for Minho and then he would go shower before everyone went to the homeschool quarters. Like a silent agreement.

Felix took a huge liking to Seungmin ever since he arrived. It could have been the fact that they were the same age and a few weeks apart, or it was the fact someone else showed him empathy and compassion. As Seungmin wasn't the cuddly person, and was extremely quiet their bunk quarters were the only space left so they agreed with the head dormitory, they would move into a 4 dorm. Seungmin was actually hesitant at first but with Felix's glossy orbs he just couldn't keep his composure when it came to him. He mentioned there was something about him that would hit him and cause his façade to dwindle, as the same did with Minho for his brother Felix. He knew Seungmin deeply cared for him, but his brotherly instincts remained intact, not wanting his brother harmed in this cruel world.

Minho watched Felix shuffle in his bed, blinking a few times before he rolled over to his side. He wrapped his arms around Minho's waist placing his head on his lap, whining. He softly chuckled at his little brother. He was sixteem now and still acted childish.

"Wake up Felix!" Minho cooed at him as he tightened his grip.

"Don't want to..." He retorted with his high-pitched register. It was crazy how high his voice can go.

"Ewe-" Our other room mate deadpanned before earning a glare from Seungmin, it sent shivers down Minho's spine knowing he could make such a face to scare the poor soul out of the other room mate. Their other room mate wasn't as accommodating as Seungmin was, but they've managed. Seungmin chuckled at the brotherly act, he had a weak smile, but never questioned it. He left the dorm, clearly on a mission for breakfast.

"You are showering or eating first?"

"Eating~" Felix jumped up from his bed making his way down the hall to catch up with Seungmin. Minho sighed knowing he was alone in the room now. Many thoughts running through his head. He had contemplated and wondered if he should leave Felix here to Seungmin. He has food, shelter, and school. He has Seungmin. Minho wanted to get out of this suffocating orphanage. It wasn't the worst, but it also wasn't great. It had its pros and cons.

What Felix didn't know was that there were more cons for Minho then him. But it was his way of protecting him. He was fragile, always trying to find the best in circumstances. But that's what scares him the most.

"Lee Minho..." He shivered at the way the male said his name, turning to see Xiàn Huá. He was always a bit touchy, and it always had a way to make Minho pissed off. When they first met Xiàn Huá would try to make advances on his little brother all the time and so protecting his brother like he usually did.

"Xiàn Huá..." he flakily smiled.

"No brother this time? Care to... You know..."

"Not really..." Minho mumbled under his breath tensing as he could feel the others hand run down his chest, swallowing every ounce of pride he had left.

Don't worry Felix. I will protect us...