My Reason

Chapter 7: Snaps back to reality...

The fear I felt, was the fear of letting it go… The fear of a vision that might be real, but it also might not be. Connor comes over to me and hugs me tight. As he tries to calm me down, I continue to sob.

"Everything is going to be alright…. I won’t leave you," he says into my ear.

"W-what happened to m-me?...Connor," I ask stuttering a little.

He stayed silent for a minute then spoke up. "I can’t…..I can’t tell you what happened….but I know this...none of this is your fault," he says.

"All of this is my fault... I’m the one who got drunk at the party...I’m the one who got in a car and drove…I’m the one who got in a car wreck….Don’t tell me its not my fault when it really is," I say.

"Haiden none of this is your fault….Yes I will admit you getting on the road not sober was a stupid move but….its not your fault….something happened that drove you to do it," Connor says.

"What you mean?" I look up at him.

"....What if you weren’t the one driving? Do you even remember if you were the one driving?" he looks at me.

I start to think, about that night. "I’m not sure…...I don’t know," I sigh.

"C’mon I know just where to go," he stands up then pulls me up with him. I look into his eyes and he looks back into mine. Nothing prepared me for this moment.

……………(Background song for this chapter: Hozier "Take Me To Church").....................

I nod at him and follow as we both walk. Heading to the one place I never wanted to visit again. The place where my body was found. I felt weak my legs gave out and I fell to the ground. My vision was dark and hazy. I pass out.