I'll Protect You

Chapter 8

When we finally pull away, we just stand there looking into each others eyes.

Of course that wasn't my first kiss, but it was the first time I've ever kissed anyone like that.

The best part about it was....it was with Nixon.

The feelings I have for him, are complicated. I've always had this sort of attraction to him, I just didn't know it was that strong.

Now that I know what it's like to kiss him, the feel of his lips on mine, I want more. Way more.

I want him to let me take him upstairs and rip off all his clothes. What's stopping me? I'm a virgin, obviously. I would like it to be special, with someone I love.

I've always loathed those girls that sleep with a different guy all the time.

I mean wouldn't it be hilarious if they just got pregnant or an STD? I think it would be fucking hilarious. Serves them right, though.

When I first met Nixon I naturally had that attraction to him. I mean who wouldn't? He was just so nice to me, walking me to my classes, coming to my locker in the mornings, it made me feel loved.

Since my parents are almost always at work I don't get a lot of that family kind of vibe. When I'm with Bobbie and the guys I finally feel that. It's a foreign feeling, but I finally feel like I can trust someone.

I've always been the quiet one. I didn't need friends to have fun. I mean sure it would've been nice to have friends. I just hate the fact that people become so dependent on their friends and boyfriends, I've never had to feel that way. Me, well I've always been independent. Honestly, I like to do things on my own, earn things on my own. Perhaps that's why I was really distant with Bobbie and the guys the first couple of weeks. It was new. It was weird. I never had to depend on anyone before.

When I finally come back to reality I smile up at Nixon, him giving me a just as dazzling one back.

I voice my thoughts, well more like show them, by grabbing the back of his neck and pulling him closer to me. Our lips brush and I feel the same heart sinking thing.

My stomach erupts in butterflies and I almost feel like I'm going to throw up. Although, it's one of the best feelings.

Our lips are about to seal the deal when Jayden interrupts.

"What?" Nixon sounds a little irritated, this alone makes me giggle.

I have to admit I'm a little upset too. I was really looking forward to that heart warming feeling. His tongue against mine. Yup, still want it.

"-to go." I hear the last part of Jayden's sentence to Nixon. Dammit, him and his oh-so kissable lips.

"Alright." Nixon sighs and runs his hand through his hair. A nervous habit I see him do a lot.

I wonder what Jayden had said. I mean if I were to guess correctly I would think he said something about having to leave.

"What's wrong?" I ask, looking into his brilliant blue eyes which are now clouded over.

"We have to go." His voice comes out a little panicked.

"What's going on?"

"Just...we need to leave." I don't get to respond or pester him with more questions before I am yanked by the hand and maneuvered through the crowd.

Sweaty bodies dance around us, some bumping into me, making me want to throw up.

It's seems like ages before the cold breeze hits me, the outside air feels nice. I hadn't noticed how claustrophobic I had been feeling when I was in that crowded house.