𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐀 𝐀 𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐀

Love

very long chapter! but is probably my favourite one yet <3

"I love you" I say, as his body collapses on top of mine.

You can probably guess what happened. It's crazy. I mean it's crazy how we're managing to sort all our problems this time around. I hope it stays this way for ever and ever.

"I love you mi amore, so much" he says, as he lifts his head so his lips can touch mine.

He's gentle and soft, his mouth tastes salty, like the sea but I can still feel a smile press on me. He drops his head back onto my chest, he kisses my neck a few times as I play with his soft, silky hair. Now this, is where my real peace lies. I just want to lay with him forever, cuddling, loving.

"So I was thinking..." he says, his head still flat on my chest "since I leave for tour again early tomorrow morning, we have the best night ever tonight, we can do anything you want"

"Oh god, I forgot about tour" I admit, as I lay my head back into pillow "I don't know how, I only think about you leaving like every second of the day"

Damiano laughs a little.

"So what do you want to do my love?" He asks me again.

"How about what do you want to do? It's your last night before you're stuck in a routine for the next... 6 months" I swallow, realizing just how long that is.

"I'm going to miss you so much, you have no idea..."

"Oh I do know" I say, trying to hold back my tears another time.

I feel Damiano's grip around my body tighten.

"So what do you want to do?" I ask him again. I'm quite indecisive, if that isn't obvious.

"I don't really want to go into the city tonight, after you know, this afternoons interview, so I was thinking maybe we could go.... Ooh I know"

"Where?" I ask, confused to what he meant.

"The prettiest place I know, you'll see" he says as he rolls over out of bed.

"Where are you going?" I ask.

"To get ready! We need to go now or we will miss the sunset bambina" He says as he starts to dig through his clothes.

"Well what kind of thing should I wear?"

He rummages further before pulling out a beautiful dress of mine. It's a baby blue, one of my more casual dresses. He holds it up and begins to walk closer to me.

"Wear this, you always look beautiful" he says, handing it to me "Go get changed quickly" He says pecking my lips.

I rush into the bathroom, so I can sort out my hair as well. Luckily, Im already not wearing anything. I smirk in the mirror, laughing a little. I put the dress on. He really does know what suits me. I grab the hair brush and begin to brush my hair to perfection. And then, I put on my infinity necklace. The one Damiano bought me because our love really is forever.

"Bambina, are you ready? I hear Damiano call from downstairs.

God he was fast. I quickly grab my pink lip gloss and put it on my lips before rushing downstairs.

"Wow" Dami says as I walk up to him, who is standing in front of the door.

"What?" I say.

"You look... beautiful. I can't believe you're mine" he says as he puts his hands on my hips, pulling me in for another gentle kiss.

"As do you" I smile as our lips part.

He kisses my hand and leads me out the door.

"So where are we going exactly?" I say as he opens my car door for me to step in. A gentleman as always.

"You'll see my love, it's only like a 20 minute drive" he tells me, as he walks round the other side, getting in the car as well.

I'm curious now. I trust Damiano. If he says this place is nice, it for sure is. He puts his hand on my thigh, like he always does and we begin to drive towards the sunset of pink, orange and yellow.

"Here we are" Damiano says as he pulls up on the middle of a field? Huh?

"Damiano where are we? I can't even see the sunset anymore!" I tell him, very confused of what we're supposed to be doing here.

"You will in a second. Follow me" he says, taking my hand in his and walking me towards a hill.

We walk up the hill, despite my moans of having to walk up it.

"Here" Damiano says, panting slightly as reach the peak.

song recommendation for this next part: 'Red Love' by dream, ivory

I glimpse at my surroundings. Woah. This is, beautiful. No one is around. The sunset is right in front of our eyes, I feel so close to it. It looks like I could walk to it. The shades of pink reflect on the grass and all the flowers of pink and yellow around us. Damiano's face is golden, as is mine. A hill, close to sunset, surrounded by flowers nature and trees. Heaven. The birds chirping above us, the only noise I can hear.

"Wow, Damiano" I say in shock of the wonders around me "this is so, beautiful" I say unable to take my eyes off the rosey sky.

"I usually come here alone" he admits "but I want it to be our place now, the place I love the most with the person I love the most with every single piece of my heart"

I could cry right now. He's perfect. What did I do, to end up with him? I'm the luckiest girl in this whole world, universe in fact.

"Damiano, I love you more than I'll ever love anyone. You have my entire heart, forever" I tell him, I can't feel a tear trickle down my cheek.

We sit down finally, on the grass. Just us, the birds and the sky of all colours warm.

We really have a heart to heart conversation. It's just like our emotions and feelings and finally pouring out to one another. Love, peace, comfort.

"You know, I've never felt this way about anyone, like I feel for you. I've had several tries at long term relationships, but ours which is only just a year soon, not including our break, makes me feel another kind of love. You make me feel special, appreciated, the luckiest man to live and I know I've said it so many times today but I love you. Always know that" he tells me.

I can't hold it back anymore. My eyes start to fill with tears. It's unusual for us to be so open with words, usually this isn't our love language. But, I think I've finally found my element within it.

"Damiano, I can't even begin describe the way I feel about you. You make my heart warm, you make me feel safe, loved like I've never been loved before. I want to be with you forever, I can't even imagine life with anyone else. I love you, and I'll never love someone else this way" I say, tears flowing down my cheeks.

He gently wipes my tears off my face with his thumb.  He holds onto my body as he pulls me in for another tight, meaningful hug. This hug feels different, I don't know why today is being so emotional, but I feel so connected to him in this moment.

"How am I going to live without you for 6 months?" He asks, beginning to cry too "I can't even go a minute without wanting to hold you like this amore"
He says, I can hear the tears in his voice. "You're all I've ever wanted" He tells me, giving me butterflies.

"I really don't know at all" I say as I lean into his lips,  kissing him with all the love I can give to him, tears still falling down my cheeks.

No, I because I really don't know. I don't know what I'm going to do without him. My heart suddenly sinks as the reality of having to say goodbye fills my mind.