Fifty Shades of Grey

Chapter 9

I was freaking out! What do I wear? I asked myself. He asked me to come to his room. Holy fuck, what do I do. Pacing back and forth I didn't know what to do. Especially what to wear. Normally I wouldn't care about this stuff, but I do  now. Shade just asked me to come to his room. I was over exaggerating, I'll be fine. I just have to go help him, I mean me. He has to help me. Oh no, I'm freaking out and I'm so nervous. Chills are going up my spine and neck. Just stay calm Emma, I talked to myself. Everything will be fine, I said to myself. Shade is so cute. I can't believe I just said that, but it's true. I finally admitted it. We've know each other for so long. Now, I think I've fallen for him. Whats happening to me? I used to hate boys. Well they used to be scared of me, but I liked that. It showed I had girl power. I wasn't afraid of no boys. Who do they think they are? OKAY! Emma, stop trashing boys. I'm still talking to myself. Shade is so cute. I already said that. Now I'm repeating myself. This is bad, real bad. Okay, I'm just going to dress casual. Got it. I looked at myself in the mirror. I actually look like a girly girl for once. Wow. I actually kinda like it, I said to myself. Wait a minute. WHAT AM I SAYING? Ewwww. This is disgusting, hate it. Garbage. Well I hope Shade appreciate and recognize that I dressed up. He better appreciate it or I will slap this guy silly until he does. All for you Shade, all for you. What is life? I don't know. Well, when in doubt, party out, right?