Silent Destiny

Making Ally's

*SNAPES POV*

I think to last night as I watched Y/N walk back to her common room. Part of me wanted to follow her to make sure she makes it back to her common room safely. That girl is more trouble than Potter these days. Sneaking about the castle at night, now filled with outside death eaters and even more werewolves. But I wanted to show her that I respect her. I want her to trust me, confide in me if she needs to. After what I did last night, there was no going back. She now knows how I feel about her, and I never should have done it. I couldn't help myself though. The jealousy I felt when she went after that Vennet boy, and even knowing that he betrayed her. She still cares deeply for him. It was the kind of love I had for Lily. That I still somewhat do. I feel like by having feelings for Y/N, I am betraying myself and her. But deep down I know Lily never loved me the way I loved her. Ever since her death, all I have wanted to do was die. There was nothing left for me in this world. For her, I protected Harry. It was the only purpose I had, to see him grow up and defeat the dark lord. Knowing I would probably die in the end, I see Y/N, and it made me sad thinking about being without her, or if I had to live without her.  I wanted to possess her. To make her want me just as much as I do her. She deserves so much better than me. If I could I would be that person for her. But I know I cannot love her because, in the end, I will break her heart just as Lily did mine.

*YOUR POV*

Beginning to stir, your muscles partially ached, and your eyes were groggy. You felt the sun shining on your face through the window. Sitting up, you get up and brush your hair. Then you remember everything that happened last night. Your sister and Nadia are gone. You don't even know if they are okay or if they are actually still alive. Should I trust Greyback? Or Niklaus? And Snape. Oh boy, that's a whole other issue. Both of you made a mistake last night. There was no way he was drunk either, so that excuse won't work. Or at least he didn't taste like alcohol. Stop thinking about it, you blushed. Rolling over you look at the clock on the wall.  12:55 P.M.

Oh shit, fuck shit fuck. It's past noon. I've missed three classes this morning! And lunch...-Y/N

Throwing off the sheets, I get dressed into one of my robes. Thank god I was able to get a spare one this year.  I quickly brushed my hair and went into the bathroom to brush my teeth. Once I was done, I quickly grabbed my bag and rushed out the door heading to charms class with Professor Flitwick. 

*CHARMS CLASS*

"Ah Miss Y/N. I was beginning to worry you would be a no-show. I hope you are doing alright? I didn't see you at lunch and the other teachers informed me of your absence in their classes"-Professor Flitwick

"Oh ah yes, I am feeling a little better, thanks," You said sheepishly. There was a bit of pain in your voice as you tried to hold back your tears. 

"Even if you're not, I am glad you are here trying your best anyway. Please sit so we can get started"-Professor Flitwick

You sit down in the middle front. You normally sit closer to Professor Flitwick because you learn better that way. And normally you had friends that sat near you. But today you couldn't help but hope everyone leaves you alone. 

"Y/N, hey we've missed you today. How are you doing?" said Harry coming to sit next to you. Ron sat next to him.

"Yeah, how are you doing? I heard you had a rough time last night. I hope you know you're really brave for that"-Ron

You slightly smile at the compliment. You and Ron don't normally have this kind of light-hearted talk. "Thanks, Ronald, I appreciate that. And I'm okay, I-I'm just lost I guess"-Y/N

"On what?"-Ron

"The entire thing. I don't know what to do"-Y/N

"What do you want to do?"-Ron