Long Live The Moment

TO THIS DAY

To this day, I hate my body.
To this day, I can't sleep at night.
To this day, I want to forget.
To this day, I don't understand why I was thrown away.
To this day, people see me as a waste. To this day, I am afraid to walk at night.
To this day, I remember the worst day of my life.
To this day I can't close my eyes without seeing it.
To this day, I distrust.
To this day, I build my walls higher and higher.
To this day, I shake like a leaf.
To this day I go to therapy.
To this day, I wear my scars inside and out.
To this day I regret my mistakes.
To this day I choose to cover my body in art.
To this day i won't let anyone in.
To this day i leave them before they can leave me.
To this day I'm terrified.
To this day I can never see the world the same.
To this day nobody can feel my pain.
To this day I fight for freedom and equality.
To this day people don't understand why I do the things I do.
To this day I don't let people in. to this day my thoughts consume me.
To this day I feel different.
To this day I want to sleep forever.
To this day I will never love myself the same.
To this day I can't figure out myself.
To this day I feel lost in my mind.
To this day I need help.
To this day I care.
To this day I can't decide.
To this day I want to hit the brakes on life.
To this day it's all going too fast.