Worlds Apart

Christmas

Christmas

Dixie POV

Confused.

That's what I am

Confused as hell. I love Noah, I'm guilty, I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm confused.

I feel like I'm going crazy because I don't know how to feel.

I woke up and felt happy as it was Christmas. My mom was a very big fan of Christmas so everyone in the house was wearing Christmas pajamas.

All I did when I woke up was look at my phone and answer and respond to Happy Christmas texts. I also brushed my hair before walking downstairs.

I guess I was the last one to arrive because everyone was downstairs. My mom and Tatum were bonding while making breakfast.

Addi and charli were making Tiktoks bye the Christmas tree.

My dad was observing everyone with coffee in his hand.

Noah, Bryce, and chase were talking I had to take a second look to make sure they weren't arguing.

When I was walking down the stairs everyone's eyes went to me. It weirded me out a lot, it was like they knew something I didn't.

I shrugged it off they probably had sympathy for me because I was being forced into 2 days with Noah. My mom knew as she helped with buying tissue when I was in my all tears faze.

My dad knew too. My parents were disappointed in me not because I dated the person that I wasn't supposed to be around in the first place. They were disappointed because I had let the worst get the best of me.

I let lying nick get me.

I was still frustrated in nick but it was still 90 percent my fault.

I'm still confused if you cant tell.

After breakfast we all sat around the tree and we started with secret Santa. My dad handed everyone there's. My parents made sure to tell everyone that it needed to be very anonymous. So the only names that were on it were the peoples that it was being gifted to.

We all opened our eyes and went down the line charli started and got what I gave her

Tatum got a decorated storage container for her art supplies.

Addi got some new clothes.

I got a notebook with my initials on it and Immediately knew it was from Noah. He is the only one who knows what I'm feeling. He cares more than I thought he did. My confused self slowly figured out what I was going through and it is life.

I'm going through life

And I know it will be okay because I know my life in loves Noah.

I opened the notebook and it said on the first page.

Hey dixie,
I think you will know who gave this to you but i want to tell you that everything will be okay I promise. I know what your going through and it's confusing, but it will get better and this is to help.

- N

I smiled ant turned next to me as chase opened his present my eyes caught Noah staring right at me. He smiled and I returned the gesture and snapped out of my trans to look at chase.

After secret Santa. We all opened our regular presents in total I got. Earrings, necklaces, bracelets, rings, room decode, clothes, shoes, a tortilla blanket, and a lot of other things.

I had smiled a lot today and it was real it wasn't fake and I laughed panned to keep it that way.

We all had lunch after talking all together. My eyes kept landing on Noah's and it was okay because every time it did he would be looking right at me.

After lunch my parents insisted on us driving to the Becks house and have alone time so that's what we did. We drove to their house and played bored games me, Tatum, and Noah introduced addi, and char to Outer Banks.

It became a extended Besties show as addi said.

Me and char slowly adapted to just calling addi a best friend. Me and charli got the pride in calling addi a sister and know we wanted Tatum and Noah to.

We decided to have a sleepover here and unlike yesterday I was happy about this one. We would all sleep on the floor in the living room and enjoy each others company.

Their was no need to drive back because Addis and Tatums clothiers were hear and we could borrow something. We laughed and talking and enjoyed each other's company's

Addi asked if it was okay if chase, and Bryce came and we all said yes. I think she was mainly asking Noah's permission because if the last we all had but Noah was fine and the boys seemed to be becoming friends.

Tatum invited her boyfriend and I instantly felt single. Which I was but that doesn't mean that I liked it especially because my ex was in the room

When my head called him a ex I wanted to cry but I held it in for the sake of my friends in the room.

The boys arrived and we all moved the coffee table and the couch back a bit. We all laid blankets down. I could tell the girls felt my sadness being the only girl without a boyfriend here so we decide the boys would sleep on one side and the girls would sleep on the other.

I silently thanked all of them with my eyes and they gave ma and we would do anything for you look.

We ordered pizza and watch a scary movie and then a comedy to make ourselves feel better. Each oh fell asleep but me and Noah ended up being the only ones awake.

He looked at me and said "goodnight dixie" he smiled at me and I got lost in his shiny hazel eyes. "Goodnight Noah" I gave him a sympathetic look and he just smiled.

"I love you no matter what" he said and I didn't  know how much I missed it until he said it.

"I love you too Noah"

That was the last think before my smile and myself fell into a deep sleep.

A/N

I kinda like this chapter only because I feel that everyone is at a neutral stage or better. Did y'all like it ?
Comment like and share. Thank y'all so much for everything I can't even believe how far this has gotten