Ever feel like everyone around you is living life like one big statement, full stop, exclamation mark? And I'm over here living life as one big question.
One big question, or rather, endless questions. As soon as I answer one, I move to the next. All my life, my experiences were initiated and born of questions.
I wonder, what I can learn here, what this will taste like, feel like, looks like. Seeking answers in experiences, relationships, partying, testing limits, speaking with the plants and challenging beliefs.
Rebelling against the conditioning and limitations externally supplied.
Questioning, what it will feel like to leave the comforts and the chains of familiarity, to travel solo, to quite the security and safety of a career, to climb mountains and live with strangers, to collect stories, to disappear, to connect and share, to create, to feel the earth, to nourish and grow, to marry and build a life together. To heal.
I live like life is one big experiment.
Who's to say it's not?
Through it all, I'm learning, I no longer need to rebel against status quos and expectations. My life is more valuable then that. I will no longer live in opposition too, but in alignment with.
Alignment with my joy, my ease, my passions and my loves. Designing and creating, exploring and questioning, imagining and building. I will continue to nourish the foundations of all that flows in alignment with my heart and soul.
Lovingly laying the past versions of myself and my experiences to rest. Grateful for these lessons and ready to release the hold they have, the past is no place to wallow or live, the future unwritten.
And the present, inviting and expansive, filled with promises and creative potential. Though my stubborn nature sometimes gets in the way, it also offers me the tenacity to fight for what I believe and value, and while I often desire control and the perceived safety it brings, I feel liberated when I surrender and trust.
Though I thought these questions were already answered, life's not so simple. Beautifully and painfully nuanced, the questions and their answers circle back, delivering a deeper awareness of trust and freedom with each visit. For now, all I can do is trust and receive.
What lessons, is this dear life teaching you?
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This Liminal Life
SpiritualA written exploration of the liminal space we inhabit from birth to death. A reflective exploration of one woman's experience of what it is to be human, in a not so humane world.
