Do I have a god complex? Yes.
Wow what a hook. It's one in the morning and I feel horrid. I want a cuddle. That leg that I broke 2 times? Yeah that's hurting again.
But onto dreams. I've been having vivid ones that at first hinted that I had a patron deity, and are now slaps to the face that I should, ya know, listen to them? I clearly am not. If you can't tell.
Next thing, I'm losing a friend. Granted I don't think he ever was once he started acting the way he did.
I am pagan, he is nondenominational Christian, which can mean a lot of things. In his case, he believes any god/belief that is not his god/belief must be a demon. And I, someone who takes the fae very seriously did not take kind to this.
Respect towards the things we don't understand is what I wanted, not to slap the label "demon" on things we don't understand. And he did anyways. So now I'm in the process of cutting him out of my life, all while my dreams become less dream like and more "listen to me damnit" and I'm spiraling while I prepare to go off to college.
Yeah, school, yippee. English major, rooming with the psychology major. I think it had something to do with my essay on the ultimate failure that human government was and despite it forming and collapsing over and over, mankind is bound by pattern to make a new one.
Oddly enough the same happens with religion. But I don't think the school is ready for that talk.
Woah ok, I just covered a lot of shit. It's 2am. I'm going to go obsess over an in-depth storyboard maybe finally sleep.
And uhhhh patron, no. I will not dedicate myself to working with you I have commitment issues!
Krowe
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Non-FictionI'm Kraken, the author. I write my humor, my life, everything on here. Suffering included. Existential crisis is mandatory. I just need a hug. I'm usually crying when I write these entries. Comes with the clinical depression and anxiety mixed with u...
