Karlnap

This is a ramble so you dont have to read it

I hate life so munch it just I feel lonely sad I wanna die kill myself just have peace I don't wanna be alive I wanna feel good about myself be proud not be afraid of eating scared I'm gonna be a disappointment to my whole family scared because I'm bisexual and I don't wanna tell my family because they are homophobic I wanna stop cutting myself at night when I know everyone is asleep or when everyone is out enjoying  life so I'm alone and get to cut myself again it might hurt sometimes but I feel like I deserve to feel the pain cause I'm a disappointment and dont deserve to live I've had a knife to my throat wanting to slit it but There's a little part of me that doesn't wanna die and wants to enjoy life not cry wants to feel better wants to feel like they were a kid with there parents at a park having fun but sometimes it's hard to find that little part of myself and be happy I don't wanna have to be in this pain I wanna die just have some peace and end it not have to live anymore  not be a disappointment to anyone anymore wants to be free of life and all my problems being a disappointment school use to be my safe place but now everyone there hates me there for simply being me such as eating talking my body my nose my eyes my race my hair my height everything and now I just want too be gone from the world not be here never have existed and have peace for good god I'm sorry if you read that I know it's annoying but that's that I'm trying to work on anther chapter but can't figure out what to write so if you ideas tell me that all for now bye love you eat food drink water