But he doesn't feel the same (sunny x kel)

Someone's at the door

(sunny pov)

Another day. One more night has passed me, leaving my body tired despite having slept for so long. What time is it even? I could check the clock, but... that's just so much work...

maybe I'll just go back to sleep... I close my eyes, trying to return to my dreams. Trying to return to Mari, to talk to her again. She would probably know what time it is. Hero would too, but whenever I ask him he tells me to get a watch in true father fashion. I think he's just avoiding the question, though, because he doesn't have one either. True father fashion.

The buzz of the phone in my room goes off, and I rise from my bed to listen to the message. I know it's from my mother, telling me what's on my to- do list for today, but I should listen to it anyways.

...apparently Kel has been trying to see me.

I haven't gone out in... how long now? A year or two? I'm not sure. Mari would know. But I guess it's been long enough that Kel wants to see me. I lie back down on my bed, closing my eyes. I can hardly remember what he looks like anymore, and even then I only remember what he looked like... however long ago it was I last saw him. I mostly remember his smile... he has a great smile. He had a bit of a gap in his teeth, but he smiled wide regardless, never worried about what people would think of it. I thought it was cute, but Mari said he would have to get braces one day to fix it-- something about how it would negatively affect his bite. A shame, in my opinion, but eating is important. Or something. 

I try and picture what he might he look like now... we're about the same age, a few months apart, but the same age regardless. He's probably taller by now, huh... He was a pretty short kid, but everyone grows over time. Though I'm probably still taller than him.

As kids you don't really think about how you stack up to your friends in terms of appearance, but Kel was definitely more attractive than me. He had a knack for making people-- or maybe just me-- feel better just by smiling. Now, we're both older. I just hope his smile hasn't faded, but there's no way of knowing, I suppose.

There's a knock at the door.

Noone has knocked on the door since I shut myself in... Mom is at the other house, preparing to move, so that means it's someone else. Maybe it's Aubrey-- Mom said her dad died, and she turned into some kind of hooligan... If it is her, she's probably here to beat me up. I can't fight for shit. Maybe I shouldn't open up the door. It could be Basil. I don't want to see Basil. I couldn't see him if I wanted, but that might be him at the door. I can feel myself spiraling, am I having a panic attack? Yep, definitely having a panic attack. Fuck, fuck-- 

"Sunny!! You in there, man?"

My thinking quiets down. That.... that's not Basil. I sigh, relieved that it isn't him. At some point I fell down on the floor, so I stand and move to the door of my room. I notice my knees hurt about halfway down the stairs, probably from hitting the floor so hard on them. My panic attacks have only been getting worse, especially since we're moving soon. The thought of leaving behind this house just... it scares me, I guess.

I find myself standing in front of the door, almost suddenly. Kel is still knocking... what a persistent idiot. 

"Sunny? Please man, come out and see the sky!" his voice is muffled through the door, but it's still unmistakably his. I feel myself shaking, for some reason. He's your friend, Sunny, why are you so goddamn scared... I can feel myself heat up. Do I have a fever? Is that what this is? Ugh, my head hurts... I should stay in for the day. I don't want to get Kel sick. I draw back my hand from the knob, turning to head back to my room. He'll probably forget about me soon, anyways. He's got Hero, and maybe he's still friends with Aubrey. I don't deserve him anyways; I mean, here he is, knocking at my door, trying to get me out of the house, and what have I done for him? Abandoned him, that's what. I haven't talked to him at all, despite him trying so hard. He probably hates me.

"Sunny... I just wanna see you again..." I hear the sound of something-- no, not something, Kel-- falling to the ground outside my door. I don't think he meant for me to hear that. That was something from him; something unfiltered, untainted by the overly positive energy he's always had. He... misses me.

I open the door.