But he doesn't feel the same (sunny x kel)

Please, don't let go.

(sunny pov)

I find Kel sitting on the steps of my house, leaning back on his hands, facing away from the door I just emerged from. Upon the door swinging open, he turns, looking up at me. His eyes are glittering, his hair a bit messy, but all I can think is... he's gorgeous.

I can feel my face burning. Shit, I must have a fever... or maybe its the sun? I look up, but the small awning over the steps is shielding me from the sun entirely. Nope. Fever. Or... maybe it's him.

I look back down to the boy sitting on my steps, truly looking him over this time. His skin is dark; he and Hero have dark skin by race, of course, but Kel has a clear tan over him. He's wearing a tank top with the logo of the high school for this neighborhood-- he's always been athletic, but I never quite thought of the possibility that he would actually do sports in high school, for whatever reason. His face is dotted with freckles, just the tiniest bit sunburnt, and he has quite a few scratches and scars across his body. Ever the careless one, huh... I figure he probably hasn't matured much since I last saw him. 

After staring at each other for a moment, taking it in, he smiles. That huge, amazing smile that could take down entire armies if he used it right. Sure enough.... braces. He springs up, wiping his eyes and hugs me. It's warm, his arms completely wrapping around me, capturing me in him. He holds me tight, and it's all I can do to put my arms around him too. I feel so safe here. In his warmth. His warm body holding mine. I notice that I'm tiny compared to him-- in terms of  build, at least. He definitely feels strong, if not a little chubby, but that just makes his hold even better. Despite my expectations, he's a couple inches taller than me, which puts my head right in the crook of his neck, allowing him to really pull me into his body. Part of me wants to stay in this forever. An equal part hates that I do. After all, people aren't supposed to feel this way about their friends, right? Not to mention Kel is straight, right? So there's not even a point... Right?

He pulls away, ending the hug sooner than I would have liked. He's still smiling. "It's been so long! Let's see, Last I saw you was..." he thinks hard, counting on his fingers before excitedly showing me his hand. "Four years ago! Wow, really has been a while..."

Four years... It doesn't feel like it's been that long. Sometimes it still feels like yesterday. I think of all the days that have gone by, all the nights I've spent thinking about my friends. I'm suddenly hyper- aware of how awful I must look; Probably incredibly over-tired, with messy hair that I've fucked up with my terrible hairdresser skills so many times, my clothes dirty and smelly, my frame incredibly skinny and frail. How the hell could he stand to hug me that long? I rush to try and smooth out my hair, attempting to brush it out with my fingers and failing miserably. Goddammit. Now whoever sees me is gonna think-- no, they're gonna realize-- that I'm a total slob. I want to hole up in my room and hide again. This was a bad idea. I should just go--

"Sunny!! where are you goin', man!" I hear Kel through the fog in my head. I feel his warm hand holding mine, and my face burns. I don't turn in favor of him not noticing, but I stop moving towards the door. I give myself a moment for my face to cool down, and turn back to the other boy. I mumble a sorry.

"Aw, don't worry about it, just makin' sure you don't bail on me!" Kel's smile is back before I even have time to worry about the fact that he's still holding my hand. "Anyways, I gotta pick out a present for Hero since he's comin home this weekend, and you're coming with me!" Kel practically drags me to the sidewalk, where he finally releases my hand. Again, it's too soon of an end for me.