loneliness can protect your happiness from heartbreak. its like i isolated myself.. in many ways, i got lots of reasons for this to happen..
who said its not good for myself?
it gives you confidence, defines who you are, and who you want to be, learning more of experiences is also one of its benefits, a warm heart, a dry throat and cold hands, the thoughts once comes suddenly to your mind and the confusing questions.. after the position, are the lessons you'll get.
people who are lonely or alone, are the ones who fakes a smile and hides the hole in their soul to fight , heals and let go are the ones opens a gate for a new time of heroes after them.
there's no secrets are hidden in me, maybe its only ideas on mind, maybe bc I'm transparent person?
my secrets follow me my whole life too.
Not knowing who you are? like a sweetheart pretender and a bitch inside, like a flower without its roots, and a valentine card with nothing written in.
indeed, your target is gonna be in front of your eyes, without you knowing that its what you need.
like walking for days and the bottle of water in your pocket, you either forget to drink it or let a friend steal it from you, getting blind and feel it hard.
because you're
just looking, not watching.
and unluckily, i spent my entire life in that un dead ghost circle forgot where home really is.
Talks with humans with mouths, lies much with a straight face ,
and shows what's real to ghosts with a coward face.
and 99% of people i fall for are the ones i cant be with, so i just try to close my eyes and let them try to choose me.. feeling unlucky, waiting for my turn to be the one and only or probably the hero of all heroes, trying to have a chance to save a partner's life.
But it's still not LOVE.
it's an advantage, cause you're the one supported and loved by anyone and everyone.
he's only the innocent.
and you're the great people's disaster, disaster of addiction, addiction of love and fans.
Because you can save anyone but you cannot love everyone you save.
trying to be friendly with someone you like feels disgusting, GROSS.
you're already in the next level, and he's still in the first of the game so we need to push hard for it to let them know, on the other hand,
its a side of a fear..it gets the hell out of me.. when i walk calmly beside somebody I admire and my legs must be shaking ... in silence so i keep the real me hidden in that already bruised body ..till forever, ill keep them feeling creepy about myself every single time, while i'm not, they don't know they should hide me because I'm really awkward.
who cares? i know the secret of keeping myself busy and cheering myself up as long as it's about me, i have a nice taste in the most of the things, its a value i shouldnt neglect.
I would sing for laughter.
I would scream for anger.
and I would cry for sadness.
at least, keeping things out are a better solution of stress, if you really wanna get out of trouble, looking up all night is better than having tears under the pillow.
such as the beloved called FOOD, when i'm bored i like to smell the food that i cook and dance in the kitchen.
id say, coffee is a hot nigga, better than any hot other guy.
WHATS BETTER THAN BEING UP ALL NIGHT LIKE NEVER BEFORE WITH A HOT NIGGA?
and DRAWING;
i can draw myself having a famous band on the huge stage singing, "thankyou my fans xoxo ily all thankyou again" *bows* thats what comes first when i think of fame, oh its a dream come true..
STANDING ON STAGE IS A BRILLIANT LIFESTYLE.
EVERYONE WATCHES YOU and you go like.. " oh baby all eyes on us "
YOU ARE READING
Star Jealousy.
Teen Fiction" it takes for him years, to ease his jealousy, like the stars that takes a billion years, before it disappears, things change, people change, moodiness always changed her, into another person, but it won't changed a bit being her, as a beautiful s...
