Star Jealousy.

part 8: revelation

8: 00 am
" hey bitch, I heard you snoring.. "
JESUS CHRIST!!
" NANCY WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE HOW DID U EVEN GET INSIDE?! "
" look at your phone.. " She smiled at me.

I saw 30 miss calls and 50 msgs in every one message a letter, non sense.
it's all to wake me.
" oh sorry, who opened the door for you? "
" your mum went to work and I called her before coming to you and she told me she'll leave the door opened.. for me"
" okay so um.. did you eat breakfast?"
" no, I came in a rush bc it's 8 am and we wanted to find him... BUT UR LOVELY DREAMS ARE RUINING THE JOURNEY WERE GONNA BE IN. So please. Remove the sheets, blankets around, go prepare yourself, I'm waiting for you. "

" not yet, get out of the room I'm gonna wear my clothes, give me 5 mins and thirty seconds. "
" really? Thirty seconds.. okay, grungy buddy. "
I wore grey off shoulder blouse, red beanie, black leather pants, creepers, black bracelets, silver rings in my thumb and index fingers, circled glasses, a red lipstick and a winged eyeliner, which is attractive.
I held my brown leather small bag..
I looked at nancy after wearing like okay... it's normal to wear something like this to me..
" hey kitten... I'm laughing wOw at this, ariana grande? "
" nO,
cruela devil.... "
" bahahaha, let's go now it's getting creepy.. what did you put in your bag? " *looking at the bag*
" gummy bears.. and vodKAH.. "
" WTF? "
" gummy bears, vodka, knifes, papers, and colouring pencils. "
" why all this? "
" gummy bears are yummy, vodka is when I get thirsty.
knifes for if he tried to get closer, I know he's gonna fall in love not with us, with the lips...
papers, for drawing your shocking face, colouring pencils are for you..!
Colour me cause you know you're stuck with art.. I'm fab. "

Nancy: " not fab enough without me, and I can't read your mind always it's like a
fog, but let's get out of here now... "
Nothing really matters?

New York, a small red building with a huge garden, autumn trees around..
" I CANT IMAGINE WE JUST WENT WITH THAT TAXI DUMB DRIVER UNTIL WERE IN THIS PLACE UGH I WISH I DIDNG TELL YOU 'let's go' he looks like a drug dealer and you're acting like everything is cool and nice .... "
" calm down woman, he's just like us.. "
" WTF VANESSA WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY LIKE US UGH I CANT UNDERSTAND YOU!!
HE LET US PAY 5 DOLLARS BC ITS A DIFFERENT WEATHER TODAY!! "

" a drug dealer, it's the same As the way you laugh with me, so better cut this off... "
"  I am so pissed off right now, whatever... "
me: " shhh.. feel ready before we get in.. Show confidence, try, so you don't feel sorry for yourself after... "
" why do I need to feel sorry? "
" some people loves first impression, hun, show him how you can you be good for all - "
" no opinion. "
" just listen to me, don't regret it. "
" you're, a journey itself, danger can be seen on your face... "

I ignored it, were mean friends, and I'm as mean as twice.
Rings, then knocks the door calmly.
I deserve to be known, by him.
Its art, it's life lines.
I want to observe him, enthusiastic, but I'm still on the middle of my roller coaster that didn't move..
If he's lovely, it only makes me stronger, and my roller coaster goes up.
If he's not, I'll go down.. Till the roller coaster crashes..
I shouldn't be perfect.. though FIRST IMPRESSION NEEDS IT.
I have lots of expectations..
he was an artist, that never looked old,
His fashion wasn't old too.
He opened the door,
he looked gentle like the morning breeze and the tear falls on your cheek when you cry,
the charming baby blue eyes like the morning light bursts,
like I found hope,
His eyes were the forests were my wolfs haunts at night,
i dreamed of him when I'm eyes opening, but it's real too.
I was a danger, and it feels not to him, he knows exactly when to take care, exactly like not ruining drawings.
I was full of mistakes, and he looked flawless.
Ugh not again, please Vanessa, not the eyes..
I screamed inside, I said I was a fool for people that I loved..
He looks FUNNN, I broke the rules and it's fine, and I feel he's my escape.
I was afraid those beautiful eyes had more secrets than books I read.
he flips his light brown heavy layered messy hair...
Alert " hotness hotness "
I didn't like muscles way too much, and bony.
I like... In between.
Just don't look like a girl ksdkdkskdkdkf shit....
Adam's apple, and clear collar bones.
He wears... Drop crotch red pants, with a plain black blouse,  & black sneakers.
It's an " Imagine " tattoo underneath his neck.
and another one.. A cloud tattoo, with some stars.

i was worriedly thinking how to keep the conversation going.
His smile was glowing.
I must focus..
I just want to stare at him forever.
and he was catching my gaze every now and then.
smiles at me slightly, and look away when we talk.
SO INTERESTED, and it's weird, I'm not always interested.. In people, I only knew how to learn from them.
What's better than a smart art guy with a soft voice..
Only makes me wanna get close to hear him more.
nancy and me looked at each other's faces, yeah her shocking face..
she whispered to me..
" I look like a pig ."

He's attention was truly set on me.
we talked, I've recognised his cheesy grins.
Falling for him like a little bird, can we still be in cage together?
I know so damn well he's a perfectionist, to me.
Uhh, it's an alive attraction, idek.
He loved to listen to me when I talk and it's a huge turn on.
I just love it when someone listen to me when I talk and question me a lot, explore a mysterious fantasy.
What I like, what I wish I had, and what I want to have.

" uh, you're a masterpiece, get inside, don't pay me just -
I can't resist your appearance get inside please and we'll talk, I don't know you but you seem cool. "
I felt like stealing him.
" we're strangers, how can I trust you? "
" trust an artist to get you inside and draw you with all the meaning of art, it feels nice to see you again. "
" excuse me, do I know you? "
" yes? Of Curse.. you do, you just don't remember me, BC you turned away last time.. "
I gave him the look with my eyes like
What do you mean?
" hakuna matata.. Mr. Right me.. "

nancy whispered laughing again: " once in a time he'd know my face without makeup and the way I snore too, how hyper you are, and the way I chew.. "

" my terror and pain transferred to joy and passion since I saw you, I need to draw your- all of you, It feels weird you're the one visiting me after walking away. "
" oh my god, it's you then? But how is this happening you're not even the same face, he was old, I mean you, ugh confused much... Tell me.. "

" I was hiding myself with a mask from other people, I know if I removed it they'll ruin my house, some of them are killing thieves, some of them once broke the window and stole my mum's most precious drawing, and I don't need more problems to happen.. So I stay awake with the world, hiding.

And I wondered who will.. Love the person I'm actually hiding..
Who's the person.. That will be lost inside me, and I needed inspiration.. What an artistic mess... "
" okay... Okay... Good excuse, I'll try to think of it positively so we won't, come here for a bad... Day or something, and I don't have time " I nodded.
" are you coming here for something you need? I'm so talkative sometimes, you need a help? " he said.
" uhhm, yes to be honest I have a project that - needs you. " looking to the floor.
" oh? I'd love you to need me, I know I'm busy sometimes but not for a masterpiece, I can't ignore.. " he smirked and opened the door.
" uhh stop, well ya help me right now?" I tried to keep on a straight face, awkward and shyness...